You get what you give!!! KARMA 🔃

Hey everyone

Tonight I wanted to do a little blog about karma and how I absolutely stand by the universe for giving people what they deserve.

Before I start this isnt a bitter rant of mine it’s the complete truth and it’s just what I believe in.

So anyone reading this who knows me to then start questioning yourself if it’s about you ide say guilty conscience 👍

So karma where do I start I believe if you do something bad to someone in anyway shape or form the universe will reward you with a taste of your own medicine.

It’s not always necessary to get your own back on someone who’s done wrong on you karma always plays its part it maynot always be straight away but will Come when they least expect it.

When your angry and hurt by someone’s actions you let them win I know its easier said than done but honestly the universe is watching and waiting for the exact time to send karma their way.

So what is karma well its when something that you have done, comes back to you
For example, if you do something good, something good will happen to you back. if you do something bad, something bad will happen to you.

Karma can be dangerous sometimes.

That’s just the way it is I’ve been constantly in cycle for eight years now and I’ve really had enough, I’ve tried and gave everything I had and then some but sometimes you just can’t help some people.

I’m so done with being angry and after everything I still wish them well personally i know karma will come their way so I won’t need to tell the world anything unless I proceed with my autobiography and then sorry it will all come to the surface.

So to anyone out there who feels the need to get your own back don’t karma is watching and she will do the dirty work for you infact I’m pretty sure she enjoys it.

Just sit back get on with life and always have a bag of popcorn to watch the marvel of her work unfold.

And then you can say…. 👇👇👇👇👇

Peace out…

Stacie xx

Drawing the line 🤷‍♀️🧘‍♀️

Happy friday all ❤️

I hope you have had a good week well first moan of the week what’s happening with summer who messed with the seasons the fact that I’ve got soaked down to my knickers around 4 times this week already due to monsoon rainfall is an absolute liberty.

Second moan I now have gluten allergy 🙄 so my diet has had to completely change otherwise it will seriously effect my health cheers when they made me they certainly wasn’t being kind.

Not a massive deal but having to adapt change again when there isn’t enough room in your head to think about new life changes,and you haven’t even come to terms with old ones yet is pretty much pants.

But I’m strong 😉

So anyway I was having this conversation with a friend of mine this week and topic was where do you draw the line and move on from people.

Thing is I’ve been through this situation but in different scenarios a few times in my life.

And I know I sometimes I talk like I’m older than noah and the ark but if I’m honest I’m just a normal human being that’s been through some tough times like most people but I’m more open to share my experiences not so that people feel sorry for me but for people to know if they are going through similar situations that they are not alone.

So back to the conversation I was asked what would I do if I couldn’t walk away but needed to.

Heart over head is an ideal choice for Me as I’m impulsive.

But for most people it can be scary I personally would love to live in a world where everything goes smooth and there is never any issues that I have to deal with but unfortunately that’s not how life is.

Effort has to come from both sides within a relationship or a friendship if you start questioning your worth then it’s time to do so some serious thinking about how you deal with the next faze of your connection.

It can be hard to walk away but it’s even harder being stuck in a situation that you see no way out of or if there is anyway of making that person feel the same.

Truth is you can’t make them feel that way they have to feel it for themselves.

You can give everything to one person your love your respect your care and most importantly your time and its time you never get back so you need to tread carefully.

You can give everything you have to someone and it still not be good enough.

But what you need to realise you are good enough if they can’t see that then it’s there problem not yours.

Eventually you heal and you move on and learn from the situation just takes time.

Time is the key sure you will have good and bad days.

Maybe it will hurt when you see they have moved on but remember if they wanted you in there life you would be apart of it no questions asked.

But always remember you are always good enough and if your stuck in limbo in a connection like this you have two options wait to see if they come round to your way of feeling and thinking.

Or move on with life and focus on moving forward not moving back.

Hope you have a fabulous weekend everyone…

Peace out

Stacie xxx

To tone or not to tone that’s the question 🌹🧖‍♀️

Hey everyone it’s Sunday hope your having a great weekend.

I’ve been inundated with messages regarding two beauty products I purchased from my local aldi store asking what I really thought of the cheaper version of the branded products pixi glow tonic and pixi face oils.

A few months back I ordered a trial sized product of both the pixi glow tonic and face oil I have to say I’ve read very good reviews of the whole pixi range as it combats many issues regarding skin problems they have a whole range full of products for different skin types.

So willingly I tried both products you see I have combination skin and trying to tackle different combinations with only few products is a pain I end up with a shelf full of products.

So I did a bit of research and then ordered two trial sized products from pixi to see how my skin was after use I have to say I was quite surprised and impressed by the two products but only thing that put me off was the price.

The rose toner from pixi retails from around £18.99 (gbp) and the rose face oil by pixi retails £19.99 (gbp) I know it doesn’t seem that pricey but I hate spending that much money on products.

I do love a bargain and saving money if I can…

So I was doing my local food shop in aldi and I saw these two products on the shelf they looked similar to the pixi products but they are made by a company called lacura retailing at £3.99 (gbp) each

Sad as it sounds I was excited to use them to see if they where similar to the pixi products.

I wasn’t disappointed I found the two products very similar the only thing I would say is that the lacura product smells stronger than the pixi one I’m not overly keen on rose as a Scent but it’s not that over powering that I wouldn’t be able to use it.

The toner left my skin feeling clean smooth and fresh it’s also tackling the combination skin issues I have.

The face oil isn’t too oily as daft as that sounds it’s not heavy on your skin I’ve found it leaves me with nice glow I apply before my foundation but you only need a small amount a little goes a long way.

I also apply after I’ve taken all my make up off and used the rose toner before bed.

I would definitely recommend these two alternative products and with a massive saving of £31 I will definitely be purchasing again.

You can find these products at your local aldi store or online

Click Link below 👇 👇

rose toning tonic

rose face oil

Thanks for reading my review, 😊😍

Lots of love

Stacie xx

Dreams come true if you want them enough.

Heya all

I Hope you have all had a great week.

I’ve been thinking a lot about my life and what ide like to achieve and over the past few weeks I’ve really thought about what I want My girls are not always going to be little not that I’m wishing the years away but I also need to think about me and what will make me happy.

So I need to share one of my goals with you and I’ve set it to Be completed by the end of 2020

Have any of you seen the film the holiday?

Well for the ones who haven’t it’s a love story where two women have their heartbroken by men the one falls in love with a man who barely looks at her as anything else than his assistant and the other a successful women who’s a movie music producer is taken for a bit of a ride by a man who let’s his egotistical personality thrive of her success.

Well after these two ladies left heartbroken and alone over Christmas and thanks giving. Decided to do a house swap the successful American lady comes to the UK in a stunning little countryside cottage and the other women flys off L. A to a swanky pad with a pool but whilst she’s on the plane ready for take off she gets a texted off this gentleman asking for her advice she looks and decides not to respond at that moment you feel her pain when you know she wants to respond but out of self dignity she can’t.

Hang in there I’m getting to my point of me mentioning this to you all.

After some alone time and reflecting on thier lives they know that changes need to be made if it wasn’t for their heartache they would of never got the courage to have flew half way across the globe.

During this time they started to find themselves again and learning new things going new places meeting new people and falling in love at the most unexpected time.

Without forcing anything all happened naturally and fate had taken over but if they hadn’t of taken that chance and if they hadn’t of been brave they would of never kick-started their new path.

Here where it comes to me I get extremely influenced by movies and music call me Peter pan I can honestly say I don’t live in a dream world or an ideal one I’m somewhat in between if I can make it happen I will.

So I’ve had this dream for a while now like one of my bucket list items.

To be completely at ease with myself ide love to rent a cottage in Ireland for a few weeks somewhere disconnected from every day life to sit with a book by a log fire with a hot cup of tea with the noise of the waves crashing amongst the shore nothing else no stress no Internet just completely shut down and let my mind be clear.

Ide possibly hitchhike a lift into a town and hopefully survive then go sit in a traditional Irish pub and listen to some proper Irish music with a famous pint of Guinness.

But my favourite thing would be to go around Christmas time.

When people’s spirits are higher than normal.

Sounds pretty boring to some people but we aren’t made to all have the same dreams.

So I Vow to follow at least one of my goals a year this one has been at the top of my list for a while it’s about time I followed it.

To completely detach from day to day life would be great and to kick start my path to finding myself again would be absolutely amazing.

I’m not worried about doing anything alone I’ve always been strong willed.

So I never worry to much about travelling what will be will be you never experience anything from staying inside the box.

Lots of love

Stacie xx

Houston, we have a problem 🚀

Heya all ❤️

Before I start ide just like to say this isnt a blog about space sorry to get you all excited..

I just absolutely love this saying not because I’m such a nerd but because it can mean so many things as Tom hanks said it in apollo 13 when in spaceflight on the discovery of the explosion that had crippled their spacecraft in such way it stayed with movie lovers everywhere and if is often used in so many ways to say a mistake has been made but it might be unfixable.

Why I use this expression is that upon grueling impact on your own vessel during life you have to nurture the vessel to keep the soul In place and to be able to withstand what life’s throws at us if you don’t look after the vessel the soul finally breaks down.

I don’t mean in general health but more about mental wellbeing.

May seem a little morbid for some people to think this way but it’s OK to not be OK.

After a few days of extreme highs I’ve hit a low and I’ve got to keep reminding myself that I’m strong and I can get through anything.

Slightest things kick me over the edge when I’m like this everything seems a massive deal when it really isn’t.

You see when life is so busy and we don’t take time out for ourselves we slowly loose who we are and slip into a continuous cycle of being so busy we put all our own needs aside.

I can’t actually remember the last time I sat in silence.

Started reading a book or even painting my nails as silly as that sounds.

I literally don’t know how to switch off and my phone is always. Constantly going.

Then I’m flooded with messages asking if I’m OK don’t get me wrong it’s nice that people care.

But I’m best left alone I will come round on my own terms.

It all gets a bit much sometimes so I end up going…

Just so I can completely shut down and refocus if I don’t I’m like a ticking time bomb.

So it essential that we completely switch off and take time our for ourselves.

So here’s me trying to detox myself and by using himalayan salt bath crystals gold face mask and lip mask.

May I just add these peel of masks are more painful that waxing and for love of god don’t put it anywhere near your eyebrows you will end up looking like a fish….

Have a fabulous day or evening where ever you are.

Remember self care is important for your mental health ❤️❤️

Love stacie xx

Is it summer yet 🤔

Hey all happy Saturday.

I did say I was going to do a review of bondi sands gradual everyday tanning milk so here it is…

So it’s payday and I’m in my local superdrug store in town and I’ve been moaning all week on how I looked very gothic for the approaching summer months.

Everyone says hey life’s better with a tan so I thought yes why not but I really wanted to avoid that nasty beef crisps smell and looking like a crusty tiger roll from tesco in the wearing off stage.

If I’m honest I’ve been researching that skinny tan but I’ve seen mixed reviews so I was kind of put off that due to the numerous bad reviews that’s it’s not worth the money.

I’ve tried most tans and I very rarely get a spray tan unless it’s a special occasion.

Just needed something that was easy and quick drying and that doesn’t smell totally discusting.

Saw this on the shelf and thought it’s a pretty big bottle for £7.99

Normal retail price is £11.99.

I couldn’t wait to use it that’s the sadness attached to me in life and your in your 30’s get excited about getting a new kettle or a microwave you know post middle age issues.

So yesterday evening was the first time I’ve used it and honestly I’m quite impressed.

Not used a gradual tan for a long time it’s always been a full on tan no going back till it fades..

Back in the day dove gradual tan was the go to product when my grandparents used to curse at me don’t use that self tan rubbish it will give you skin cancer no grandad the only thing that will happen here is ide be looking like a cheesy wotsit.

Old people 🙄 god rest their soul..

So me being old school thought why not just try a more advanced product and see if a gradual tan will be easier to maintain within my busy lifestyle.

Well I have to say a little bit goes a long way you don’t need hand fulls of the stuff to cover your body drying time is around 10 mins you need to make sure you properly dry your skin before applying if being used after a shower or bath.

You must allow the lotion to dry before dressing but I’ve not seen any product rub off on my clothes.

Only problem I had I forget to wash my hands after use so now they are slightly darker in between my fingers than rest of my body. 🤦‍♀️

The smell isn’t to bad at first smells like biscuits but it does wear off after a while.

After one application this is my result..

I have to say I was a pale shade of white I’ve not applied any other products apart from bondi sands gradual everyday tanning milk.

I no longer feel like a goth even though I’m still a inner goth I feel my dark brown hair suits better with a natural looking tan.

So honestly would I recommend this product yes I would.

I would give it 4 ⭐⭐⭐⭐ not giving it 5 as I really hoped it didn’t smell at all but honestly it doesn’t smell horrific otherwise I wouldn’t use it.

So I’m going to continue to use it and see how it goes but overall its a good product.

Click the link below to purchase yours today…

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Peace out✌️❤️

Love

Stacie xx

Fight or flight ✈️🥊

Hey everyone

What a week it’s been I’ve been in a constant state of fight or flight.

I’ve been in survival mode for so long that I’ve finally start to feel numb.

I’ve tried to keep away from social media this week just needed to have a quite word with myself.

Truth is I’m heartbroken on so many levels in my life to feel actual pain in my heart almost everyday this is combined situations from my past and my present situation.

Constantly feeling the need to defend myself and my actions to people they would never listen to what I have to say b it is pretty much hard work.

I always try to keep myself busy with the girls and with work

But this week I’ve not been able to block it all out aswell as I normally do

Mental health is so underfunded in the UK to many people mental health issues are misunderstood they say oh get over it pull yourself together it’s really not that easy.

Infact it’s bloody hard work to pretend you’re OK everyday when you aren’t.

Thing is with this blog I haven’t posted with intention of making people feel bad.

Infact it’s quite a different approach I’ve now taken in my life

I’ve been dwelling and I really could kick myself sometimes I’m a massive….

It’s a horrible feeling I can’t get rid off doesn’t matter how I try I just can’t move forwards and I’m not sure if I can or even if I want too.

I’m really trying my best trying to put plans in place for me to look forward im guessing somethings we can’t have or be apart of in life doesn’t matter how much we want to be apart of it.

I will be trying to relax this bank hols so I will give you a review of the bondi gradual tan when I’ve used it for the next few days.

Peace out thanks for reading…

Stacie xx

Late night playlist 🌃😴❤️

Late night playlist here is a few of my favourite songs I love to listen too ❤️

Coldplay the scientist

Muse madness

Matchbox 20 3am

Matchbox 20 unwell

Kodaline all I want

Counting crows have you seen me lately

Counting crows Anna begins

The beatles all my life

Mumford and sons snake eyes

Kings of Leon use somebody

Drake summer games

Pink 90 days

Lord huron the night we met

Adele turning tables

Lady gaga & Bradley Cooper always remember us this way

The killers when you were young

Aretha Franklin change is gonna come

Sam Cooke bring it on home to me

Fleetwood mac the chain

Enjoy 💋

Love stacie xx

Why do we need Mondays 🙄🙄

Evening all

Help I have Sunday evening anxiety weekends go so fast and weeks so slow.

Yes I moaning again I know may seem like this is all I do.

But honestly I flipping hate Mondays.

People say its a chance to start a fresh week how so what will always be will always remain the same I say.

Im not a live for the weekend kind of person I rarely go out these days.

Gone are the days of 6am going home time after a cheap night in Chicago`s in Walsall whilst your sisters been throwing up some poor lads shoes and riding around Morrisons car park in a shopping trolley.

Or last minute holidays to Greece 🇬🇷 with my big sister managing to wake up half the hotel beacuse I thought there was a giant crab in the pool which turned out to be a pool cleaner.

Yes I was a little drunk and maybe over excited.

I’m mostly happy now with gin in the fridge and flat shoes home by 11pm sometimes the stacie at 20 comes out occasionally but takes about 2 weeks to recover after it.

I kinda miss my youth where making mistakes was expected of us.

Now have to do this going to work the rest of my life lark and it’s pretty pants.

Monday morning dread is the worst though you go to bed early on a Sunday thinking I will try be asleep by 10pm nope your up still by 1am googling stuff like package holidays and why is my cat moaning all the time.

Brain please sleep you need to be fully alert for what ever Monday throws at you and normally it throws more like a

Yep that’s the reality.

At the moment I’m trying bed time tea to stop my anxiety before bed.

My last thoughts of the day are always the same and they do say what and who you think of before bed is where your heart is.

Well back to this tea it did help first few nights but now it’s more like a punishment only way I can discribe it tastes like dandelion and some nasty weed that grows on the worst part of the garden.

It’s not the best 🤮

At the moment I’m not on any medication for anxiety I personally am trying to manage it on my own.

Me being me won’t have much help I don’t need it worst people in world than me that need NHS help.

My mum calls it me being stubborn but unfortunately that’s one of my bad traits.

So I go into Monday thinking what on earth with this week bring.

I will smile at work and bring our my alter ego called Betty she’s nothing like stacie she’s polite she’s happy she’s helpful and she doesn’t moan.

See nothing like me 😊

I hope where ever you are in the world you have a good week if not you can just sit by me and we can moan together.

Peace out ✌️✌️❤️.

Stacie xx

What’s love got to do with it..

Afternoon all

I hope your having a great weekend.

I often get asked about my love life which I find totally annoying.

I’m a very private person when it comes to matters of the heart where I am generally a very open person with other subjects when it comes to the four letter world it makes me have a heart attack.

I feel we all fall in love 😩 once completely in our life’s sometimes for others it’s more but I honestly feel we all find our one soul mate once for some of us it works out perfectly.

For some of us not so much…

You know that one person we gravitate back to even if it’s been months or years weither it’s been good or bad endings you will always find each other again.

And if you don’t you have memories you have shared together.

Sometimes we find people we connect with on a whole different level and I’m not talking about liking the same TV shows or same bands etc it’s about connecting on a whole different level not just common intrests anyone can make anyone laugh doesn’t mean just beacuse you both like game of thrones and his farts make you laugh once in a while makes you the perfect couple Infact I’m not even sure if perfect is real.

Your relationship can be rocky and testing and sometimes you would just love to say you know what 🖕 you I’m done.

But they are meant to test us and that one person can drive us crazy but we still love them anyway.

Doesn’t matter how many times you fight or give up on each other fate will always pull you back together.

I have to say I’m a terrible at communication in a relationship

I’m not selling myself here am I really..

I know what I need to say but it Doesn’t come out right.

When it comes to emotion I’m absolutely rubbish doesn’t mean I don’t feel anything but when it comes to openly talking about feelings I shut down.

For me I know personally how to find a soul mate and loose them again and this feels terrible and I have regrets everyday.

I just thank them for allowing me to be apart of there life.

And if the universe aligns again between us it would probably be…

So if you ever find your soul mate make sure you hold on with both hands through the rough and smooth and be open to listen and understand that life’s not plain sailing it’s just a ride.

For me who knows what’s next…

Peace out ✌️❤️

Stacie xx