Late night playlist 🌃😴❤️

Late night playlist here is a few of my favourite songs I love to listen too ❤️

Coldplay the scientist

Muse madness

Matchbox 20 3am

Matchbox 20 unwell

Kodaline all I want

Counting crows have you seen me lately

Counting crows Anna begins

The beatles all my life

Mumford and sons snake eyes

Kings of Leon use somebody

Drake summer games

Pink 90 days

Lord huron the night we met

Adele turning tables

Lady gaga & Bradley Cooper always remember us this way

The killers when you were young

Aretha Franklin change is gonna come

Sam Cooke bring it on home to me

Fleetwood mac the chain

Enjoy 💋

Love stacie xx

Why do we need Mondays 🙄🙄

Evening all

Help I have Sunday evening anxiety weekends go so fast and weeks so slow.

Yes I moaning again I know may seem like this is all I do.

But honestly I flipping hate Mondays.

People say its a chance to start a fresh week how so what will always be will always remain the same I say.

Im not a live for the weekend kind of person I rarely go out these days.

Gone are the days of 6am going home time after a cheap night in Chicago`s in Walsall whilst your sisters been throwing up some poor lads shoes and riding around Morrisons car park in a shopping trolley.

Or last minute holidays to Greece 🇬🇷 with my big sister managing to wake up half the hotel beacuse I thought there was a giant crab in the pool which turned out to be a pool cleaner.

Yes I was a little drunk and maybe over excited.

I’m mostly happy now with gin in the fridge and flat shoes home by 11pm sometimes the stacie at 20 comes out occasionally but takes about 2 weeks to recover after it.

I kinda miss my youth where making mistakes was expected of us.

Now have to do this going to work the rest of my life lark and it’s pretty pants.

Monday morning dread is the worst though you go to bed early on a Sunday thinking I will try be asleep by 10pm nope your up still by 1am googling stuff like package holidays and why is my cat moaning all the time.

Brain please sleep you need to be fully alert for what ever Monday throws at you and normally it throws more like a

Yep that’s the reality.

At the moment I’m trying bed time tea to stop my anxiety before bed.

My last thoughts of the day are always the same and they do say what and who you think of before bed is where your heart is.

Well back to this tea it did help first few nights but now it’s more like a punishment only way I can discribe it tastes like dandelion and some nasty weed that grows on the worst part of the garden.

It’s not the best 🤮

At the moment I’m not on any medication for anxiety I personally am trying to manage it on my own.

Me being me won’t have much help I don’t need it worst people in world than me that need NHS help.

My mum calls it me being stubborn but unfortunately that’s one of my bad traits.

So I go into Monday thinking what on earth with this week bring.

I will smile at work and bring our my alter ego called Betty she’s nothing like stacie she’s polite she’s happy she’s helpful and she doesn’t moan.

See nothing like me 😊

I hope where ever you are in the world you have a good week if not you can just sit by me and we can moan together.

Peace out ✌️✌️❤️.

Stacie xx

What’s love got to do with it..

Afternoon all

I hope your having a great weekend.

I often get asked about my love life which I find totally annoying.

I’m a very private person when it comes to matters of the heart where I am generally a very open person with other subjects when it comes to the four letter world it makes me have a heart attack.

I feel we all fall in love 😩 once completely in our life’s sometimes for others it’s more but I honestly feel we all find our one soul mate once for some of us it works out perfectly.

For some of us not so much…

You know that one person we gravitate back to even if it’s been months or years weither it’s been good or bad endings you will always find each other again.

And if you don’t you have memories you have shared together.

Sometimes we find people we connect with on a whole different level and I’m not talking about liking the same TV shows or same bands etc it’s about connecting on a whole different level not just common intrests anyone can make anyone laugh doesn’t mean just beacuse you both like game of thrones and his farts make you laugh once in a while makes you the perfect couple Infact I’m not even sure if perfect is real.

Your relationship can be rocky and testing and sometimes you would just love to say you know what 🖕 you I’m done.

But they are meant to test us and that one person can drive us crazy but we still love them anyway.

Doesn’t matter how many times you fight or give up on each other fate will always pull you back together.

I have to say I’m a terrible at communication in a relationship

I’m not selling myself here am I really..

I know what I need to say but it Doesn’t come out right.

When it comes to emotion I’m absolutely rubbish doesn’t mean I don’t feel anything but when it comes to openly talking about feelings I shut down.

For me I know personally how to find a soul mate and loose them again and this feels terrible and I have regrets everyday.

I just thank them for allowing me to be apart of there life.

And if the universe aligns again between us it would probably be…

So if you ever find your soul mate make sure you hold on with both hands through the rough and smooth and be open to listen and understand that life’s not plain sailing it’s just a ride.

For me who knows what’s next…

Peace out ✌️❤️

Stacie xx

Social media fairytale 🧚‍♀️

Evening all

I’m so happy it’s Friday I’m sure your all happy too unless your working this weekend if you are booo..

I’ve seen a lot of posts today about keeping your social media real. #keepthegramreal

Although I have to admit I do love a Snapchat filter myself but I have to completely agree sometimes I look at people’s Instagram posts and I feel a little wave of insecurity come over me.

I know I’m not the only one who thinks this although I’m happy for people but sometimes our insecurities can take over our logical way of thinking then you start doubting yourself.

One thing I’ve learnt over the past few months is its OK not to be perfect.

Everyone has their good and bad days.

So what if your hairs messy.

Or you can’t be bothered to do your make up its not end of the world self care emotionally is more important.

Also living your life is important making memories taking time out to think away from technology and people.

Social media can be a great way to communicate but it can also become very toxic to people.

Just remember no one is perfect we all have bad days and good days don’t compare yourself to anyone.

Most of all don’t judge anyone you don’t know what they are going through.

Join the campaign and #keepthegramreal ❤️❤️❤️

Love to you all 💋💋💋💕

Stacie xx

Help it’s only Tuesday 😱

Heya all

Cant believe its only Tuesday all these Bank Holidays off has got me all spoilt and that.

You know when you can feel like it’s going to be the longest week of your life well yep well this is my week commencing.

It’s more like a constant loop for me every week is the same go to work sort kids oh and sleep I love to sleep.

When my weeks are like this it gives me lots of time to think.

Me I hate thinking its the worst and for anyone who knows me knows I can be a complete nightmare when I’m like this.

You see I’m an overthinker I’m always thinking of what could happen instead of just letting things happen naturally.

It’s almost like I’m trying to control my own fate which is impossible.

I could really just do with someone taking all the thoughts and feelings out of my head storing them in a locked box and throwing the keys away that would be amazing.

ide love to start fresh maybe meet people for the first time again how I would change situations and how I approach people in a better way so they could see the real me.

The trouble with me is that I try to hard to be the perfect person that people want me to be instead of being the person I am.

But I have no magic time machine nor can I fix what’s broken from my past I will just have to live with my mistakes and learn from them.

I’ve never been good with my emotions I can’t quite get out what need to say in person.

But when I write and blog I feel it’s a sense of healing for me.

It’s a perfect way to share my feelings and thoughts.

I know I’m not the only one in the world who’s feeling a little heart broken but I really would like to share this with my readers.

Your doing the best you can in life your alive your breathing your living find it in your heart to forgive people who treat you badly and know that everyone is fighting battles we know nothing about be kind share love.

I pray for a quick week and slow weekend I hope you do too ❤️

Peace out ✌️✌️💋

Stacie x

Ohana means family, ❤️👨‍👩‍👧👭👫

Evening 😊

I hope you have all had a fantastic weekend.

Mines been amazing my family from down south came to visit it was really nice to see them Seems like forever since I last saw them.

When I made my decision to move up the northwest it wasn’t an easy one probably the hardest choice I had to make.

Leaving my parents and my sister and my neice behind wasn’t easy I’m a very strong person I do deal with hard situations quite well but making a choice to leave them and try to create a better life for me and my girls was the hardest choice I’ve ever had to make.

My parents have always given me the space to grow and be independent in life.

They are not over the top parents who need a say in every aspect of my life.

We definitely don’t live in each others pockets.

But as we get older you learn to treasure the time spent together.

Making memories is what’s important.

My girls have cherished the time we they have spent with their grandparents their auntie uncle and cousin.

To me distance means nothing Infact its made me cherish my family more.

One thing I never take for granted is time it was so nice to see a smile on my dad’s face again.

Ide like to share a few pics with you all….

Have a great week all.

Peace out

Stacie xx

Beauty Locks hot chocolate ☕💁‍♀️💆‍♀️

Hello everyone hope your well.

Today I’ve received my beauty Locks hot chocolate drink so I thought ide give you a bit of a review.

I have to say I’ve been feeling a little drained recently so I decided to go on a little bit of a health kick to help my body recover after my illness.

I came across this product on Instagram after researching best vitamins to help with your hair nails and skin.

I don’t know about you but I really struggle to keep on top of taking lots vitamins along side my medication mostly remembering to take them everyday is a nightmare with my busy lifestyle.

So I just needed something I that would take away all the faffing about but something I could also have that would still give me what I needed.

So I thought ide give beauty Locks a try is a 30 day program with just one cup a day no messing about opening endless vitamin tubs just add 1 tablespoon of Beauty Locks Hot Chocolate.

Pour on near boiling water and stir.

I added one sweetener and bit of semi skimmed milk.

It’s also a low calorie drink so great for if your on a healthy eating program.

BeautyLocks is formulated with all of the essential hair-friendly vitamins which include Biotin, Folic Acid and vitamin B group combined they work hard to nourish your hair from within, so you can grow longer, stronger and thicker hair, increase hair strength and elasticity, as well as reducing breakage for overall healthier hair.

You can also experience benefits with a clearer healthier skin complexion and stronger healthier nails.

I normally don’t like hot chocolate drinks but I have to say I’m quite impressed with this product for the overall taste of it.

It’s actually quite nice.

I will be reviewing this product every so often to let you all know how I’m genuinely feeling whilst using beauty Locks.

But If you want to check the product out follow the link below 👇 👇

beauty Locks hot chocolate link click me

If you order today you will only pay £2.99 for postage.

Peace out ✌️

Stacie xx

Wow what a day ❤️⚽🔐🌊

Hey everyone what day its been.

Ive finally managed to find a place for my padlock on Albert docks ive been putting it off for 18 months.

And now I’ve finally done it I feel closure and a lot more at peace with myself.

Please excuse my squinting eyes and sandals in May.

I’ve had such a good day with good company ive not stopped laughing..

I absolutely love going to my favourite city.

I got to see half the barca team outside the Hilton hotel on Albert docks.

But what made me most happiest was that there was a certain buzz about the town yes it was full of barca fans but the sense of pride Liverpool people have for lfc is beyond anything I’ve ever seen in my lifetime.

And to finish my day off they are now through to the final in Madrid.. Even klopp was lost for words.

I absolutely love days like this when I’m at my most happiest and most positive.

I felt like I could truly be myself.

I’ve not felt such emotion like this for such a long time.

I’m actually really excited for my future.

I hope you all have had a great day whatever you may have been doing.

Peace out

Stacie xx

It’s the little things in life that make me happy.

Hey everyone hope you have had a good Bank Holiday weekend.

I’ve been a total lazy bum this weekend just what I needed.

Tomorrow I’m off to Liverpool and im rather excited to finally be putting my love lock on Albert docks.

Here is an example for people who are unsure about what they are are as you can see they have been added to the fences near the River Mersey decorating the chains with symbols of love people from all over the world come and put locks on when they visit Liverpool.

Might seem rather sad to some of you but this will be a symbol of the love and respect I now have for myself.

It will help me remind myself of a time when I thought I couldn’t overcome a situation and I totally did and how I gained respect and self love by doing this.

I’m going through a closing the door stage in my life and I’m also healing from a very stressful and traumatic 18 months.

I’m finally coming out the other side as a better person.

I don’t want all my posts to be depressing or heavy but this for me is a fantastic way to express my feelings and thoughts to all my fabulous readers and fellow bloggers.

I really hope my blogs help people to not feel alone in a situation at the end of the day this is real life we get one chance here and I intend to live it.

So as tommrow I will put another puzzle peice into my healing I will finally be able to start to let go.

Sometimes it’s not the big changes that make the difference most the time they turn our lives upside down leaving us with this big pile of emotional mess that takes us years to sort through.

When we are so focused on the big picture we miss the little and simplest changes that impact us for the better just a simple gesture or getting time to actually breathe without anything or anyone interrupting is amazing.

When you have been through trauma and heartbreak you start seeing the world through different eyes.

This is you really opening up to the world around you and the universe telling you there is so much more to life that what we allow ourselves to see.

If it’s something as little as me putting a lock on a fence at Albert docks that’s going to kick start my healing process and help me become a better person I’m going to take it however silly it may sound.

Follow your heart beacuse your mind plays tricks on you.

Lots of love

Stacie xx

But you’ve not Seen end game yet!!!

Happy early Sunday morning all,

So I’m annoyed to the next person who says to me but your a massive marvel fan and you haven’t seen avengers end game yet I honestly would love to death stare you into oblivion.

I am a massive marvel fan yes,

But do I know every single fact about marvel no and if I did i’de of gave Stan a run for his money god rest his soul.

I keep getting told ironman dies yes that’s fine by me not a massive ironman fan anyway but he was still pretty cool.

Can I just state to all the hard core avengers geeks out there I salute you for your dedication to marvel.

This is not a direct attack on you 😂 ❤️

It’s lighthearted post on why I feel the need to wait to see a three hour movie..

One: its the time 3 hours of my life in a cinema in one go how do I go to the toilet in between and not miss anything not like I’ve got anyone to give me a catch up on it. 🙄🤔

Two: I personally don’t think my bum could take three hours on a Cinema seat in all honesty it’s like sitting on them horrible plastic chairs you used to sit on at school.

Three. At the moment I just haven’t got the time I’m always at work.

Four. Ide rather wait untill it comes out on blue Ray where I can watch in my living room and I can pause it as much as I like and rewatch any bits I dont quite understand and not look like a confused idiot and perhaps Google bits I dont get without being tutted at beacuse my phone light has ruined the ambiance.

It’s not the end of the world that I’ve not seen end game good things come to those who wait.

Night night 🌃❤️