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“แด›ษชษดแด‹แด‡ส€ส™แด‡สŸสŸ สœแด€๊œฑ แด€สŸแดกแด€ส๊œฑ ส™แด‡แด‡ษด แด›สœแด‡ส€แด‡ ๊œฐแดส€ แด˜แด‡แด›แด‡ส€.

แด€ษดแด… แด˜แด‡แด›แด‡ส€?

สœแด‡ แด„สœแด๊œฑแด‡ แดกแด‡ษดแด…ส”

Typical…

Evening all โค๏ธ

I trust you are all well.

Bit of an odd day if i may say so, but all is fair in love and war.

This post isn’t Disney inspired sorry all you Disney lovers out there.

The quote actually fitted quite perfectly for today’s mood.

Right were do i start ah.. Human behaviour towards other humans feeling and emotions.

Please take however you wish to take this blog post but im not fooling around when i say humans can be absolutely thee biggest pains in the butt.

So stubborn, egotistical and stuck in their heads about a situation its beyond knowledge to me why people react this way to kindness and loving behaviour.

I get it sometimes it can not be reciprocated nor can it be forced.

Life only comes around once you know what is it your waiting for.

A sign if you want something or someone one in life you need understand that the chance doesn’t fall into your lap.

You have to work at it, and make it happen.

Nothing is perfect in life and nobody is perfect we are human we make mistakes.

That’s just what we do.

We say stuff we don’t mean act upon impulse as a defence mechanism.

Its bulit into our dna to be defensive when we feel attacked.

But here’s the thing we don’t always need to be so defensive to others opinions we are all entitled to one.

That’s just the way it is.

If a human being deliberately hurts another human being just because they care and have shown them compassion.

Says alot about the person who just can’t simply take what the other person is offering.

Due to their own self doubt and lack of understanding.

It is what it is.

And sometimes you just got to drawn the line and say enough is enough.

Remember if your a kind of person who loves deeply and truly cares enough to put everything and everyone’s needs before your own you should be treasured because that’s very rare these days.

There isn’t anything wrong with you or how you love, sometimes it is just the way it is.

Stay strong and never change who you are โค๏ธ

Love to you all ๐Ÿ˜Š ๐Ÿ˜Š

Stacie ๐Ÿš ๐Ÿ’‹ ๐Ÿ’„ โค๏ธ โค๏ธ

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Afternoon all from the beautiful sunny Merseyside UK.

Im just recharging myself in the sun before another week of chaos and internal screaming inside.

Why do weekends go so fast even when we are still in lockdown they seem to fly by.

After long conversations yesterday and thinking deep into the night.

Ive decided to do a blog post about…

Surrendering and learning that you don’t always get what you want in life.

Sometimes we need to put more effort into it or just know when to admit defeat and move on.

When we are hit with heartbreaking situations in life.

And we see no way forward and your exhausted from fighting a battle that never seems to never end.

For your own sanity you want to admit defeat and just sit in a dark corner and cry.

But we as humans are put through lessons in life that we are meant to learn from.

We all love a good love story and wish for a fairytale in life but we can somehow put to much effort into a connection that we end up loosing ourselves in the process.

We stumble upon partnerships we feel an istant connection to and give everything we have to offer for it to end up being either taken for granted or not reciprocated.

It fills us with doubt and insecurity.

You must remember that its not always you who is at fault, you may have not done anything but love a person and try and make them happy.

But sometimes its not enough you can be so wrapped up in the situation you mistake their hurt for love and affection.

A partnership works both ways and both of you need to be on same wavelength for progression to happen.

Experiencing a difficult love connection is also frustrating and exhausting.

But you need to ask yourself is it worth holding on or letting go.

Yes you maybe hurt you maybe you feel defeated.

Don’t forget how its made you feel.

Sometimes for once in a while its nice to be fought for never give up on love just because of a bad chapter in life.

And if a connection feels right then fight for it.

Leave the ball in their court and rebulid yourself and your heart.

If its meant to be it will work out but do not put life on hold.

People come into our lives to either love us unconditionally or to teach us a lesson.

Sometimes we find love in the strangest of situations but we dont see it until its to late.

Remember nothing is ever final but in the meantime breathe and if all you did today was try and survive then im proud of you.

Love to you all.

Stacie ๐Ÿš ๐Ÿ’‹ ๐Ÿ’„ โค๏ธ โค๏ธ

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Good morning everyone and happy Friday to you all.

I’ve missed out on weekly guidance for about 3 weeks so I would like to do an extended one for you today for the week commencing of the 22nd of May 2020.

So here it goes… Firstly im using my saints and angels oracle deck.

The first card that have for you today is.

Speak your truth

With this card comes a strong message. For you to speak up and tell the truth.

Has there been something on your mind for a while now that you feel that you really need to talk about this is the time to do it we’re all in a state of reflection.

The past few months we all have had time to sit and think about what matters and what do we need to do moving forwards to make ourselves happier.

When you speak from the heart you speak with love and true emotion.

Do not let the fear of the Unknown stop you from speaking your truth.

The universe and spirit world want you to know they’re doing all they can to help you push forward onto a new way of thinking and healing yourself from past hurt.

The second card i have for you today is…

Optimism

With this card the universe and the spirit world is bringing us great strength and great optimism for your future.

Its understandable that at the moment everyone is feeling low and frustrated.

But we are now coming out of a state of reflection with more clarity than what we have ever had before.

Everything we have taken for granted we will no longer.

Everything we didnt have time for in the past we will make changes for the future.

Keep sending positivity out into the world and collectively we will all become stronger as one.

The next card is..

Generosity

You’re asked to start or continue giving time and money assistance or goods.

Which many of you over this current world health issue have been giving time money or effort however big or small your efforts have been they have been greatly received by others in need.

The universe thanks you for your kindness and your true ability to help others in need.

You will be reward and the universe will bring prosperity into your life.

The next card is..

Look Deeper

You need to look beyond the surface of the situation as there is important information that you’re not currently aware of.

With this card I feel that for many of you this may be linked to romantic interest that is in your life at this current moment.

Do you feel a little bit lost a little bit stuck you wanting more but don’t know how to get it.

This card is asking you to look deeper into your own emotions to find what you’re looking for firstly before jumping to a quick solution.

I feel you will be pleasantly surprised at the outcome.

Do not be fearful of the outcome either you just need to find strength to find out what direction you will need to take but the answer must come from within yourself.

If the path seems tough hang fire nothing that is worthwhile is easy.

The next card is…

Emotions

With this card and want to look at your own feelings regarding your current situation.

I feel a lot of you out there always put others first before yourself.

Sometimes this is a destructive pattern that you can impact your own soul by trying to save someone else.

Even though generosity is kindly taken by the universe as thoughtful act of kindness you must not forget your own emotions and to replenish your own soul.

Look within surrounding current situations you know things need to change and you need time to heal.

Weither it be through love of life itself or the ones closest around you.

You need to put your needs first.

Moving onto my heart & soul angel cards now.

First card.

Dokiel Guardian Angel of Balance

This is the card of mind body and spirit energy balance.

This card suggests you need to bring balance to an aspect of your life or yourself it may be home or work related or concern harmony between physical material and spiritual self but either way you should review your position for it is preventing you from identifying your to heart’s desire.

This card is bringing forth change, change is inevitable for us to move on to bigger and better things.

Dokiel is here to bring you clarity that everything is going to work out as fate intended keep positive and avoid negative influences.

Second card.

Haurvatat Guardian Angel of the four rivers.

With this card Haurvatat tells you that like his Rivers your body is largely water so learn to be more fluid allow your energy to flow dynamically changing and evolving according to your needs use this approach to manage your goals and even your physical health by having some positive attitude towards life as to fulfill yourself purpose you need vitality.

All is vibration and raising your own levels of vibration build up your immune system increasing your resistance to disease and energy imbalance.

Also know your resources money time knowledge wisdom to flow through freely around for this fluidity helps others to make choices they need in order to progress.

Third card.

Bowl of Divine Fire of Creation

With this card the angels offer you a red life force energy from the bowl of divine favour of creation to aid both heart’s desire and your soul purpose.

Us this bowl within your visions and minds eye to help reshape or enhance the mind body or spirit whichever shade immediately drawn to is the colour will you need the most.

Draw your healing and your creative energy from this colour and allow yourself to be free to make new and exciting ideas come to light.

Find your fire and allow yourself to shine.

Fourth and final card today is.

Mystic Rose of the Star Angels

With this card comes harmony it’s more of a calm After the Storm.

If you have been experiencing hardship or tough times please know that the universe is now cleaning a better path for yourself.

You will be a lot stronger within your own energy and more understanding of your own emotions.

Allow your emotions to show and put plans in place to change the way you connected to yourself and to others.

The mystic rose of the star angels will light the way back to your true self giving you the clarity you need.

Be kind to yourself and to others.

Thank you for reading.

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Evening all.

I hope you’re all well โค๏ธ

My working week has now finished and I’m looking forward to just doing nothing.

Ive been working all through this world crisis at times it’s been tough but in true stacie style I’ve just got on with it.

We are nearly 6 months into 2020 and may I say this but what a mess it’s been.

More heartbreak, scary situations and crippling anxiety issues.

But on a positive note ive now nearly lost three stone in weight and my confidence is coming back.

Tonight it’s all about self love.

Self love is the key to opening the door to happiness.

You can achieve anything by adding a bit of sass and positive vibes into the mix.

I know that the last two years was all about growth for me lessons needed to be learnt.

Funny thing about humans is that they will take what they need from a connection and then cut the soul ties when they feel necessary.

Now im not saying everyone is like this because people do make deep soul connections with others.

Connections like this sometimes don’t make much sense but again lessons need to be learnt in order to successfully move on or move forwards together.

Negative thinking patterns can stop you from experiencing the most important and emotional experiences in your life.

The famous….

People live to much inside their own head to see the truth for what it is.

But i do not want to be inside my head its dark in there.

Sometimes you just have to admit defeat and close the chapter however painful it can be.

Self love is more important than trying to make someone feel something that’s not there.

Having the strength to over come issues of the heart makes you a true warrior.

To pick yourself up after you have shattered into a million pieces takes time, effort to preserve and self love.

Sometimes you just have to take what you need and be on your way and stop crying your heart out….

Love to you all ๐Ÿ˜Š ๐Ÿ˜Š

Stacie ๐Ÿš ๐Ÿ’‹ ๐Ÿ’„ โค๏ธ

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Here i stand one hand on the door.
You seemed to have gone now.
But then im not too sure.

There is no clue of what’s on your mind.
Of the secrets you hold on the inside.

You just seem to vanish and hide from your heart.
Im not even sure if there was love at the start.

With pure thoughts and a heart filled of love.
Now im so cold I’ve just given up.

You will never know how our story would unfold.

Page by page it just got too old.

You had chosen yourself.

And that was that… Always going forward and never going back.

Here i stand one hand on the door.
Tears in my eyes and my heart on the floor.

I looked for you and you wasnt there.
Now i know that you just don’t care.

One last time i called your name.
Hoping that you could see this isn’t a game.

You never replied with my one hand on the door.. As i slowly Whispered i just can’t do this anymore.

Stacie Leanne ๐Ÿš ๐Ÿ’‹ ๐Ÿ’„ โค๏ธ
19/05/2020

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Hey everyone โค๏ธ

I hope you’re all ok.

This week it’s minds mental health awareness week and i wanted to do a little blog post this evening.

So here i go…

Living with a mental illness isn’t an easy task.

There isn’t no cure for what goes on inside an individuals mind.

There’s solutions but no definite cure.

Everyone has high and low points in life and even the nicest of people have limits.

Finding the time to bulid up the courage to openly speak the truth on how you’re feeling and what’s going on inside your head has to be thee most courageous thing anyone can ever do.

These last few day’s I’ve been watching harry’s heroes and ive seen two well known men find the inner strength to talk about past experiences around their mental health.

It was utterly heartbreaking hearing their issues about fighting their own demons.

In this day and age people feel more alone than ever.

Being isolated from the world not because we want to but we have to can be pretty dangerous.

It’s hard enough trying to decode in our own heads than try and explain to other people what we are feeling and thinking.

Human nature is to pretend everything is fine put on a smile and hide the truth the show must go on untill we end up trying to cover everything up to suit everyone else until the mask falls off beacuse you just can’t find the inner strength to hide anymore.

Admitting you need help isn’t weak its the first step towards a stronger you.

During times when you feel your at the Darkest point in your mind you find out who truly loves you and cares about you.

It doesn’t matter how hard you push away the one’s that love you will push back twice as harder just so you can see you are worthy.

Accept help and talking about your feelings and taking on board constructive advice.

I know it must sound so easy reading it on here but I know it takes a lot of courage to admit that you don’t feel ok.

More so aimed at men because some men won’t openly talk about feeling and emotions due to pride and ego.

Mind are a charity run help centre for anyone who needs help and support or just someone to talk through their dark days with.

Every year, one in four of us will experience a mental health problem. But hundreds of thousands of people are still struggling.

Mind believes that no one should have to face a mental health problem alone.

They listen, give you support and advice, and fight your corner.

With the right support and love from people around you.

You will pull through the bad times and be a stronger person just please please don’t suffer in silence use the helplines and trust the people around that loved you even in your darkness and help you progress to the light.

Night โค๏ธ

Stacie ๐Ÿš ๐Ÿ’‹ ๐Ÿ’„ โค๏ธ โค๏ธ

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Artists: Halsey, Marshmello

Album: Be Kind
Released: 2020

Wanna believe, wanna believe
That you don’t have a bad bone in your body
But the bruises on your ego make you go wild, wild, wild, yeah
Wanna believe, wanna believe
That even when you’re stone cold, you’re sorry
Tell me why you gotta be so out of your mind, yeah

I know you’re chokin’ on your fears
Already told you I’m right here
I will stay by your side every night

I don’t know why you hide from the one

And close your eyes to the one
Mess up and lie to the one that you love
When you know you can cry to the one
Always confide in the one
You can be kind to the one that you love
Ah

I know you need, I know you need

The upper hand even when we aren’t fighting
‘Cause in the past, you had to prepare every time, yeah
Don’t wanna leave, don’t wanna leave
But if you’re gonna fight then do it for me
I know you’re built to love, but broken now, so just try, yeah

I know you’re chokin’ on your fears

Already told you, I’m right here
I will stay by your side every night

I don’t know why you hide from the one

And close your eyes to the one
Mess up and lie to the one that you love
When you know you can cry to the one
Always confide in the one
You can be kind to the one that you love
Ah

I know it’s hard for you, but it’s not fair

Going sick in the head tryna get you there
And I know it’s hard for you, but it’s not fair
It’s not fair

I don’t know why you hide from the one

And close your eyes to the one
Mess up and lie to the one that you love
When you know you can cry to the one
Always confide in the one
You can be kind to the one that you love
Ah
Ah
When you know you can cry to the one
Always confide in the one
You can be kind to the one that you love
Ah

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Be Kind Halsey

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Heya all.

Its Sunday and where has the weekend gone.

Another week approaching again stay strong stay safe.

Yesterday i was a little bit inside my own head trying to wrap my head around things.

Sometimes you end up tying your thoughts in knots and making yourself ill so i decided to go for a social distance run on my local coastal path.

It really got me thinking about what i want from life and the company i keep.

Trying to get people to value who you are is a difficult task when all they ever see is their own gain from the situation.

So this afternoon I’ve decided to blog about Virgos yes i am one myself.

So im connecting on all levels here and i have some knowledge to share.

Weither your in a partnership or friendship with a virgo and you find us a little bit hard to read well i have some insights here for you all.

A virgo women isn’t afraid to say how she feels sometimes shes too open with emotions.

But when the information isn’t received by the other party we don’t take to lightly to rejection or misunderstanding of characteristics.

We want people to to understand our need for space and sometimes quite time.

Without people feeling weird around us we dont mean to make people feel that way we are just processing our surroundings.

Now virgo likes to flirt but on their own terms dont come on to strong or vulgar it puts us of people quickly which could lead to virgo dismissing the connection all together.

Good conversation is needed but not constant talking as ive said before virgo likes quite time.

We don’t feel awkward in quite situations we are again processing our surroundings and trying to connect to your energy.

Now ego where do i start with this…

We do love someone who’s got direction in life but even if they haven’t got their life in order we still love them anyway.

But we dislike a huge egotistical presence.

Being confident and egotistical aren’t in the same bracket infact being confident is quite attractive to a virgo but being egotistical isn’t something we look for in a partnership or a freindship.

You know the types of people who are all me, me, me.

Never ask you about your lifestyle it’s all about them virgo isn’t down for that.

A virgo can be a very good soulmate connection for someone who’s willing to compromise and work on situations.

A virgo will disagree if they dont agree with other peoples views on life.

We are strong-willed and can be stubborn at times but we see at the end of it all everything worked out the way it was intended.

Virgos love unconditionally and give everything they have for that one true soulmate.

And they dont give up so easily.

A connection with a virgo will be far from easy but it will be life changing and worth it.

They know their worth and know their limits when it comes to difficult situations.

Virgos are very passionate and with the right person and being able to let go of control they are the most passionate lovers.

But again if the virgo has deep down issues with confidence or self esteem this side to them will be hidden or even can be shown as standoffish behaviour or uninterested until they find themselves again.

We are quite unique virgos we have a lot to offer to another human being but don’t break a Virgos heart otherwise you will be in trouble.

Takes time for us to heal and we do forgive in time and even reconsider a connection again but it must be truthful honest and open when it comes to emotional issues.

To all you Virgos out there i send you love ๐Ÿ˜

Stacie ๐Ÿš ๐Ÿ’‹ ๐Ÿ’„ โค๏ธ โค๏ธ

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Happy Saturday All โค๏ธ

I hope you’re all well.

I really want to share my recent boohoo haul with you.

I get lots of promotion discounts codes from boohoo.

So i decide to treat myself to a new outfit firstly ive ordered alot from boohoo over the past few years ive never been dissatisfied with my order its always turned up on time and perfectly packaged.

I get asked alot about the quality of the clothing and do i ever have any issues regarding sizing.

After loosing nearly three stone on the exante diet and being in lockdown ive found it hard to find clothes that i like and ive not got many clothes that fit me anymore due to weightloss and at the moment im living in my work clothes and pj’s.

I love to give myself a pick me up so I’ve ordered two skirts and two new summer tops over the past few weeks both hauls from boohoo.

At the moment im really into my prints before when i was larger in size.

I would never wear prints only ever black or plain clothing.

Loosing weight has definitely made more confident.

Both outfits cost under ยฃ25 gbp.

My first outfit was a black crop top with flowing animal print wrap skirt..

I’ve had a lot of comments on this outfit shoes where previously purchased from newlook.

The skirt was very comfortable and suited my curvy body shape.

I ordered size 14 in skirt and top.

The top wasn’t a short crop top but i felt it made the skirt stand out better again it even suited larger bust ladies.

Both items come to ยฃ24.99 including postage.

My second outfit i absolutely love and I can’t wait to wear it on a night out ๐Ÿ˜‰

This outfit i had ordered a size 14 for both skirt and top again great fit skirt is so comfy would either look fabulous with heels or boots for a night time look or pair of converse or vans for day time look.

I can’t wait to wear it soon.

Being able to buy nice clothing and being able to feel great in them has made me want to reach weightloss goal even more.

Sounds silly really but coming from somone who’s always battled with weight issues i can’t discribe how i feel.

And thanks to boohoo for their amazing clothing range and fantastic affordable prices alongside quality and vaule for money again i would be happy to recommend them to you all.

If you have spare time have a look on their website link is below. ๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿ”—

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That’s my working week done I’ve thoroughly enjoyed having Friday off and just having me time to exercise and catch up with things.

So its early Saturday morning and im really not tired even though sleeping remedy has been used my brain won’t shut up.

It’s really quite difficult switching your thoughts and your brain off before sleep.

You try and think why do i need to think about the most random things ever then spend the next three hours abusing Google for answers.

I really don’t know why we do it to ourselves.

So this evening my blog topic is trust the process.

This can be linked to different areas of your life.

I am the most impatient person ever if i want something i want it yesterday.

Yes im that bad.

But im ambitious in nature i can’t help that it must be my most annoying trait of my zodiac sign.

I like things done in such a way im always wanting to finish the task in hand myself.

Im not afraid of a challenge in life.

Since I’ve been on my path to self discovery I’ve found out alot about myself somethings i didnt like and ive made changes to my own personality and way of acting and thinking.

Im going to share somethings about myself my bad points and how ive made changes to the new and improved me.

In all my past relationships I’ve been hurt and cheated on like alot of people have this left me with my guard so high it touched out of space past the atmosphere.

Its a coping mechanism humans do to protect themselves.

Each time i fell in love and i got my heart broken i would bulid the wall a little bit higher.

The next relationship i got into i would always drag past issues into the next and i would always live in fear that i would have to go through it all again.

So instead I’d just withdraw myself and wouldn’t let anyone in.

Over time i didn’t even recognise myself.

I had become controlling, reserved, filled with fear & worry.

Confused why didn’t anyone just love me for me, what did i ever do so wrong.

Doubt kicked in maybe i didn’t love them right maybe i wasn’t perfect enough or what they expected in bed to be honest i don’t think i will ever know the truth.

Maybe now i don’t need to know.

Trying to control every last detail in your life and the people around you can be both mentally and physically draining.

I’ve realised now that over the years my issues with control have not only stopped great opportunities for me but i have also been suffocating myself and the people around me.

Not everything needs a plan, not everything matters, not everything is worth the worry.

You have to wait and trust the process.

If it happens it happens if it doesn’t then so be it let fate take its course.

I now understand that whatever awaits me I’ll deal with it when the time comes.

And trust the process along the way.

Love to you all ๐Ÿ˜Š

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