You didn’t go through all that for nothing.

Evening all again lucky you I’ve posted for 2nd time today.

I’m now in bed this for me is the worst time of the day when the mind us shutting down for sleep.

But my mind does the opposite it becomes more active.

My house is settling making all sorts of noises 🙄

And I start asking Google random questions seeking advice I never get very far with if though.

Infact half time makes me feel worse.

Right before sleep I get shown two pictures every night before bed my subconscious can’t relax untill I’ve seen them it’s my happy place it’s not an actual place but it’s home.

I get lots of lovely messages on my blog Instagram account I follow people and they follow me from all walks of life and beliefs.

I was asking a lovely lady who’s is a spiritualist shes not religious just spiritual why do I always go back to a happy place before sleeping.

For me this is always the case may sound sad but she said when your relaxed your mind and your heart have chance to catch up with each other there is nothing else you need to focus on the day is done so this gives way to clear thinking if you want answers and clarification it’s always best to do it at this time of day and wherever or who ever your taken to that’s where your heart is.

And sometimes the connection we feel to loved ones they feel it too.

And maybe their experiencing the same before they are sleeping.

For me I’m not so sure that’s the case but who knows.

She did tell me I had wasted a lot of time holding back and now the ball was out of my court so to Speak

But neither did u go through all what u did for nothing unfinished bussiness? Possibly who knows she replied.

I Just have to continue to live my life best I can.

I know I’m not embarrassing myself for being honest how can you if its how you feel isn’t that what a blog is all about and I’ve realised time is precious too precious to let it pass you by.

I know I’m strong I know that one day every will make sense but I’m not ready to give up just yet but I won’t be waiting around either.

Love is a funny addition to life who ever invented it sucks completely.

It’s nice meeting new people but I always think he we go again..

It’s all seems just so pointless to me at the moment I’m just no I’m not feeling it vibes.

So here I am again just talking about a subject that brings me back to that one stage in my life that’s taking me a while to adjust too.

So…

Thanks usher ❤️❤️

Night night 🌃 xxx

Stacie 🐚 💋 💄 ❤️

The magic of Sunday evenings

Hey all Sunday evening again.

I hate how fast weekends go I really hope you have all had a fab weekend.

I actually don’t mind my job it pays my bills its just the thought of getting up early all week again and longer working hours for next two weeks.

I throughly enjoyed my weekend of hardly doing anything as lazy as that sounds.

Some of my blog posts must seem like I don’t do alot and normal bloggers are out and about all the time.

Unfortunately I’m unable to do that all the due having responsibility plus I do like to go out but I don’t feel everything needs to be documented.

Wouldn’t want to bore you all to much…

Well I searched endlessly for an outfit for my night out and stay over finally found one I actually liked and I know I will look glamorous in it again its from my favourite online store boohoo because I couldn’t be bothered to go to Liverpool and search through shops.

There I was being lazy have you ever tried clothes shopping with two kids its like tourture.

Bigger headache from shouting at them to stop wondering off leads to me thinking in my head..

So when my boohoo haul comes that will be another blog post ❤️

I have to say at one point today I had quick look on eBay everyone loves ebay but i can’t for the life of me understand why people sell rubbish items that need throwing in the bin I actually saw a pair of new balance trainers today with holes in yes actual holes you could see right through them like it had a spy hole 🕳.

On the write up it actually said only worn a few times in good condition with box is she actually taking the biscuit I thought to myself wtf jut throw them in the bin.

But that’s just me.

Wouldn’t even dare to sell them online.

I’ve spent rest of my evening pampering myself nails hair skin and teeth whitening.

The Teeth whitening kit I use is blanx power white treatment system

Retail around £15.99
BlanX Power White Treatment instantly whitens teeth using our unique ActiluX formula which whitens teeth through light. Use daily for two weeks for results of up to four shades whiter. This treatment comes with a BlanX LED bite to help boost the whitening effect. Non abrasive and peroxide free.

It does exactly what it says on the packaging with no nasty bleach substance that’s harsh on your gums I wouldn’t use if it did as I have sensitive teeth and gums works just great for me I apply it three times a week for 15 minutes at a time.

Works wonders if you drink a lot of tea and coffee.

The only thing I found was that the original uv light
Doesn’t last that long so I brought a spare one works just as good.

I would highly recommend this product I have posted a link 🔗 below to 👇

blanX uv whitening treatment kit link

I’m not high maintenence but I like to take care of myself to make myself feel better not for others to look at.

So I’m all relax in bed now ready for what tommrow may bring and watching fringe a us TV series.

Have a great evening all and I hope Monday will be kind to you.

Love to you all 😊

Stacie 🐚 💋 💄 ❤️ xxx

Netflix and chill ❤️

Hey all as I said in my previous post I’ve done nothing except for putting up Halloween decorations with my girls.

It is my favourite time of the year 🎃

Everyone loves Netflix infact ide be lost without it I absolutely love the fact its updated on a weekly basis and it has 1000s of great movies and TV series to watch.

You can literally binge watch if your not. Careful..

I just wanted to share with you a few series and films I’ve watched over the past few weeks and how I rate them.

So here it goes 📽️📺🎬

1. Insatiable (TV series) gets 7/10 from me.

2. Cold case files (true story series) 9/10 from me

3. Ready to mingle (film) 8/10 funny lighthearted

4. Fractured (film) 6/10 very weird film.

5. Into the tall grass (film) 6/10 again very weird adaptation to Stephen Kings novel.

6. Derry girls (TV series) 9/10 absolutely brilliant

7. Black mirror (TV series) 6/10 slightly weird but watchable

8. Hemlock Grove (TV series) 8/10 brilliantly weird.

9. Jack whitehall travels with my father (TV series) 9/10 I absolutely love this so funny.

10. Peaky blinders (TV series) has to be one of the best shows on TV ever 9/10

I’ve been keeping myself busy on quite evening when the girls are in bed by binge watching Netflix yes I’m gulity but it’s been a life saver for quite nights in… 😂

So go get Netflix now staying in is the new going out.

Have a great evening all don’t do anything I wouldn’t do 😉😉❤️

Love stacie xxx

It’s Friday 😁

Evening all ❤️

Im sat in my living room wearing my worst pj’s bottoms and my mo salah Liverpool top from when Liverpool won in madrid I’m pretty sure I’ve dropped chocolate down it.

My hairs scrapped up in a messy bun on the top of my head..

And I really couldn’t give a 💩.

I’m in my own space I’m not scaring anyone but myself and maybe the cat but I’m pretty much sure she’s used to seeing that side of me.

Bit of lighthearted humour tonight after last night’s post.

Fridays are my best days early finish from work didn’t really check my phone until I was standing at the bus stop to go into town it wouldnt stop bloody pinging notifications kept on coming demands from my 11 year old messages from freinds notifications from apps.

I actually swore at the bus stop and an old lady looked at me in discust I said im really sorry love..

Love is a northern saying by the way incase anyones confused.

But I’ve had a hard week at work!!! Bearing in mind she looked older than the ark and probably hasn’t worked since 200bc i didn’t think she had any right to judge me when I looked like a bit of a dishevelled potato.

I was going to go into town for some down time maybe a gin before it was time to go home to deal with a weekend of mum she’s looking at me why is she breathing my air and why is the sky blue from my youngest and my eldest being her stroppy Kevin and Perry self..

But no stacie couldn’t even go and enjoy a gin and some peace without being bloody mithered running about like a mad women for everyone else.

After I got the 50th txted saying don’t forget what i asked for don’t forget to do this then me screaming for fuck sake in my mind for the 100th time.

I actually thought what if I did forget what would you of done then.

I can even finsh work and chill what’s the world coming to without someone giving me a list of things to do or replying back to people sometimes I don’t mind being there for others but I do like to be left alone also.

So this weekend I’m doing absolutely nothing but sleep eat wash put on clean pj’s and maybe listen to music or play video games seems pretty sad doesn’t it but honstly sometimes it’s just nice to do nothing.

I was going to go to Liverpool outfit shopping for when I have a night stayover with a freind but looks like it’s going to be online shopping now 🛒💯

I have got a life and I do get asked to go out alot but sometimes I just like the art of doing nothing 😁

So I won’t be looking very glamorous unfortunately but who cares because I don’t 😂😂

You take me as I am or not at all 😉

Have a great weekend I’m pretty sure I will blog Sunday evening.

Lots of love

Stacie 🐚 💋 💄 xxxx

One day (love)

One day you will think of me.

And I will be a distant memory.

One day you miss me.

But I will no longer be available.

One day you will realise the love I had for you.

But my heart will no longer love you.

One day you will know how much I cared for you.

Untill my soul could no longer care.

One day something inside you will make you realise that beyond all the drama I still remained true and that I wasn’t entirely to blame.

But everyday we walk the same earth breathe the same air and look at the same moon and we both know it was never meant to end like this.

#findstrength #twinflame

By seashells and lipgloss

Stacie xx

One day at a time 🙏🏻💚💚💚

A soft reminder not everything that weighs you down is yours to carry..

Evening all

Its world mental health day today and the topic they have chosen to focus on is suicide prevention.

What I’m about to share with you is a very personal experience as you all know that’s what my blog is all about my life and my experiences and how I can help others.

When we think of suicide people often say its the easy way out infact it takes courage to end your own life and for that person to be in such a dark place they can’t find any solution but to end thier own life.

If you feel suicidal at any point in life make sure you speak to someone close to you or a professional it’s not weak to seek help is actually very Brave. It doesn’t matter what the issue or situation is there’s nothing that can’t be solved always Remember that.

My experience was in March 2011 my life was a complete mess I was in a terrible situation I couldn’t see no way out of I was in debt, ide got out of horrible relationship.

I was also a mum to little girl who I mostly parented myself trying to make ends meet. I was grieving for the loss of my grandparents who meant the world to me after their passing I felt very empty.

I really didn’t want to bother anyone else my parents or my sister they had enough to deal with.

It was a horrific part of my life I felt such pain and I was completely broken I had a bottle of whisky in the cupboard from Christmas so I took it out the cupboard and 3 boxes of painkillers.

There I was stood in the kitchen in my crappy two bed flat which I hated broken skint and in so much pain and so angry I thought this was it I didn’t see any way out no way forward.

I actually remember standing there for around 45mins just staring at the bottle and pills on the side and it was like it was a voice inside me saying just do it already you won’t be missed no one cares about you just as I was about to my daughter who was nearly 3 at the time shouted from her bed room mummy read me a story you know the one about the mummy brown hare and baby hare

I literally collapsed on the floor in floods of tears I felt so selfish and angry with myself I picked up the bottle and smashed it up my kitchen wall and flushed all the pills Down the toilet.

I can say I was very very close to taking the pills and downing a bottle of whisky.

I then went to read to my daughter guess how much I love you because this was her favourite book at the time.

I’m a believer in the spirit world and I knew at that stage in my life i’de hit rock-bottom and I needed help i’de been having dark thoughts previous to this episode but this one I was actually ready to do something about it.

But I believe my daughter shouting me and the book title was a message from my nan and grandad.

As silly as that sounded I have always believed that.

After my daughter fell asleep I went up to clear the broken glass up and whisky off the floor ashamed at myself.

And realised the pain and hurt I would of caused my daughter and my family if I would of carried out what I had in mind would of been catastrophic.

I did speak to someone after that episode I seeked help but my biggest fear was them taking my daughter away.

To this very day there is only two people who knew about this one was a very close friend and the very lovely lady named jenny who was on the other end of the phone that just listened to me and advised me when I seeked help I started to sort through problems my debt my confidence and also I found my spiritual self that helped with my greif.

This I’ve held very close to my heart for a long time 9 years is a long time to hold a secret like that.

But my advise to you would be speak to people not everyone is self centred the world is full of nice people who will listen and lend an ear when needed.

But don’t try and tackle it alone however stubborn you maybe everyone needs help from time to time no need to be ashamed for asking for help.

Me now I’m a lot stronger I’m a lot more confident and I’m happy to share my experiences however people may view it.

To be brave in such a dark time takes nothing but courage it doesn’t make you a hopeless case it makes you human.

Please support world mental health day 💚

There are links below if your feeling lost or in a dark place please speak to someone they are amazing people who will not judge but will help…

give us a shout website

https://www.samaritans.org

Love to you all ❤️❤️❤️

Stacie xxx 💚

Oh what’s occurring

Evening all start of the week hasn’t been so bad so the Sunday evening anxiety and the sense of all impending doom really wasn’t worth it. But still it’s groundhog day.

The million dollar question how on earth do we break away from groundhog syndrome and start to actually live a little

This is a difficult question to answer but subconsciously we would all like the secret into how the universe plays out our fate.

Half the truth to this question is that we are in control of our own destiny we make choices that impact our future.

Our choices can create and shape our paths that we choose to follow.

One thing Im 💯 now is that life is for living no matter what for example…

If your stuck in a job you hate make changes and choices to move forward find new opportunities without fear.

Being in loveless judgemental relationship that’s run it’d course is also time consuming and will eventually break you down life’s to short for that….

It would be definitely the time to move on without the fear and the guilt of doing what’s best for you.

We live in a world where people actually love drama 🎭

Me I’ve got no time for it…

What I don’t understand either is when you can be having a totally innocent conversation with someone but it always converts back to them and their experiences it’s all good and well communicating but make sure it’s not all one-sided this to me is a big put off when people constantly brag about themselves.

Be humble be kind but don’t be a door mat is my philosophy show interest but don’t overstep the boundaries.

How to move on with our life’s can also be scary but choosing fear of what once was to what can be is dangerous you miss out on so many opportunities.

It doesn’t mean history will repeat itself it just means you are stronger to cope with situations better.

I also think patience is the key in life and for a virgo like me it’s horrible beacuse we want everything last week we hate waiting.

But unfortunately that’s all we can do in some situations.

Wait see and hold back even if we are 100 miles an hour.

I think change is brilliant but making the first move is always the hardest.

Only do it when the moment is right…

Love to you all 😊 ❤️

Stacie xxx

Do it yourself 🙋‍♀️👩‍👧‍👧

Afternoon all I’ve been off the radar last few days.

Just been really busy at home with general day to day things and with being a little under the weather too and overly stressed also I’ve kind of taken a break from social media.

But I’ve also been redecorating my home it’s been two Years since I’ve moved into my home and it’s still no completely finished but I promised my girls that mum would make their sleeping place somewhere special that they both could relax In.

I did redecorate when I moved in but it was just a quick fix just so it felt fresh and homely but over time I’ve redone certain parts of the house.

But I have to say I’m getting pretty good at this do it yourself bussiness.. That’s probably beacuse I’ve got no choice to do it myself 😂.

But next year I can’t wait as I will be getting a lovely new kitchen 😊😊😊❤️

My favourite shops to get DIY materials from are listed below.. All shops are based in 🇬🇧

Homebase in store and online

B&Q in store and online

Wilkinson in store and online

I love wallpaper online only

Amazon UK online only

Ebay UK online only

IKEA online and in store but tend to rip a hole in my purse with thier silly delivery prices.

The range UK online and instore.

B&M bargains instore only

Home bargains in store and online

And last but not least argos in store and home delivery services I absolutely love argos because they do same day delivery from only £3.95

Ive manged to do two rooms for just under £280 that’s also with accessories.

So to me that’s not two bad one room was inspired by the universe and nasa my little one is obsessed with stars as space.

My eldest room I just wanted her to have a bit more of a grown up space somewhere she could take herself too and have abit of down time.

Think it’s important when your growing up that you have a place where you feel relaxed and you can shut everything and everyone else out down time is really important I’ve always told my girls this.

I’m actually really proud of myself because I’ve achieved both rooms one weekend after the other and now I have two happy girls with their newly decorated chill spaces so that means mummy gets more chill time which is always a bonus..

Here are then end results if any of you would like to know the links to the items I’ve purchased please message me and I will be happy to assist…

Have a great weekend I’m now relaxing in a hot bubble bath and will be doing nothing the rest of the weekend ready for another busy week at work.

So take care and I’m sending you all my love 😍

Stacie xxx

Choose Wisely 👌❤️

Hi everyone it’s midweek and I’ve been working so I’ve not been able to blog until now.

I hope you are well and having a good week so far.

Today I wanted to blog about love and how we make choices that have a massive impact on our lives.

First of all I wanted to thank to everyone that has Downloaded my blogs content please use it kindly.

Can I just say no names will be used in any of my blog posts there are my views and experiences in life regarding love.

I’m actually quite sad at how people can react and act quite childish to others going through a transtion it maybe because of a relationship ending or someone fighting their own demons but people can be so heartless and selfish but that’s human beings for you.

So love 🙄 the dreaded word…

I’ve always had serious relationships I’ve never really gone of the rails if I’m honest but I’ve not had many good experiences with love some have been terrible infact I cringe now to think of the years I’ve wasted.

Im what you would say an unlucky in love I’m very old fashioned when it comes to trust and values in a relationship it has to be earned but everyone I’ve connected with I’ve always truly cared for and I’ve been knocked back a lot of times and then it’s turned out that they have been unfaithful.

I’ve never been interested in materialistic people I would just love to be able to share life with someone who completely gets me.

So my trust with men isn’t good I think the only man I can ever trust is my dad but I know not all men are like that just finding right ones few and far inbetween.

In no way am I saying I’m an angel because I’m not but I always give 💯. I’m always the one who takes care of everything it would be great if someone could help take some of the burden of me for a change.

And there is so much more to me than my body I’m a very caring person it takes a lot for me to give in.

I have undergone a transformation myself after years of being put down I’ve now become who I’m meant to be I’ve found peace with myself and I’ve tried to make a mense with people I’ve hurt over past 18 months.

I’ve been terrible I’ve had a lot of dark moments but I know know I’ve come through it and the people around me have now started to see a massive change in me.

I know I’ve been a nightmare but I feel I owe them a public apology it maybe a little to late but I don’t 💯 feel I was all at fault. But sometimes we want things that we can’t have however much we feel we need to have them.

Sometimes timing is off completely but I suppose when you lay all your cards on the table and the other party walks away that’s an answer in itself.

I believe everyone has that one person they truly believe if the timing was right and things would of gone different life would of been completely different but it is what it is you have no choice but to get on with life.

Maybe that’s my crazy mind but I always speak from my heart.

Love to me isn’t just a word but it’s just not been kind and making choices we regret is all apart of growing up I suppose.

But at some point you have to just say enough is enough and walk away from people you love not beacuse you don’t love them but because they don’t love you and that’s OK.

So if your like me and ready to just be compelety you and to find your missing puzzle peice in life know that you don’t need to rush you will know when it’s the right time and the choices you make will be happy ones just hold tight after every storm there is a rainbow 🌈…

Sneek peak at somewhere Over the rainbow 🌈

Love to you all

Stacie xx 😍🌈❤️