𝕋𝕙𝕖 π•”π• π•žπ•–π•“π•’π•”π•œ π•šπ•€ 𝕒𝕝𝕨𝕒π•ͺ𝕀 𝕀π•₯π•£π• π•Ÿπ•˜π•–π•£ π•₯π•™π•’π•Ÿ π•₯𝕙𝕖 π•€π•–π•₯π•“π•’π•”π•œ.

Hey hey hey….

Evening all from a very quiet peaceful Merseyside abode.

Things have been very hetic for me since new year ive not really had time to just breathe and to embrace the change.

Emotions have been running high.

I have to say i feel completely different now from last year.

I shared a lot of my sad times and things that have haunted me for years in 2019.

But i vowed that 2020 would be a year i actually started to make actual changes in my life and stick to them.

Sure life was bumpy and chaotic the last few years but it didnt mean i didn’t have fun in the meantime.

For smoother sailing you have to calm the water.

Always remember that saying beacuse life isn’t a rehearsal.

This is it…

This is who we are and what we become.

Change is inevitable it’s there to help us grow once the process starts it’s very hard to stop or even fix ourselves before the event unfolds.

You have to respect yourself however painful or hard it gets.

I thank every situation and every person who’s put pressure on my soul the last few years you have made my armour stronger and my mind clearer and my heart more forgiving.

One of my main issues was not loving myself and giving myself the opportunity to become who i really am.

Ive dropped 21pounds of fat from comfort eating and not looking after myself biggest kick up the butt i needed it and im still loosing weight daily.

Its not been easy but nothing ever worth doing is.

My blog is going from strength to strength over 1,250 people have visited in just over eight weeks.

A little self appreciation and a big pat on the back for me.

When i look back to how i was a few years ago start of 2018 after a complete life changing experience.

I felt completely lost and during this time i wasn’t even sure what direction i was going in and it was scary.

I felt i didn’t give the people around me at the time the best version of myself infact it wasn’t me at all but everything happens for a reason.

They saw me at my worst but never at my best i know i was unloving and cold and frightened.

What im trying to say is that everyone falls in life and sometimes it takes a while to stand on our feet again.

And i promise you all there is light at the end of the tunnel.

Sometimes you just need to get out of your own way!!!!

Stop being so stubborn accept things for what they are.

Be kind to yourself.

And keep living your life.

Song of the day…….

Believe by mumford and sons link below πŸ‘‡ πŸ‘‡ πŸ‘‡ πŸ‘‡

believe mumford and sons

Love to you all 😊

Stacie 🐚 πŸ’‹ πŸ’„ ❀️ ❀️

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β„‚π•’π•Ÿ π•š π•’π•€π•œ π•ͺ𝕠𝕦 π• π•Ÿπ•– 𝕝𝕒𝕀π•₯ π•’𝕦𝕖𝕀π•₯π•šπ• π•Ÿ?

Can ask you one last question she asked

What was i to you?

She had cried and fought to mend her heart.

But he didn’t care he didn’t answer he felt he had played his part.

He wouldn’t talk through his stubborn ways.

As nights passed by followed by days.

Months went by turned in to years.

The energy still flowed between them just like her tears.

Her path grew dark and her mind wasn’t clear.

But he seemed to have his life in order now and his career.

She had become someone she always feared.

The women who was left wondering and doubting herself.

Over a man who couldn’t offer her anything but passion.

As a man who would go through women like they had gone out of fashion.

So the women grew strong from the pain and confusion.

She finally broke free from a toxic illusion.

She gained her power and and wiped her eye’s.

She promised herself no more tears over stupid ass boys.

She knew her worth.

In all her glory.

The question didn’t matter anymore as his answers where invalid.

She no longer cared about his opinions from a boy she could of married.

So keep your answer she said to the moon and the stars.

I no longer care for it and you no longer have a key to my heart.

She fixed her crown and she mended her soul.

She no longer needed him she had finally let him go….

β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈπŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’ž

Stacie Leanne 8/03/2020

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β„™π•™π•–π•Ÿπ• π•žπ•–π•Ÿπ•’π• π•Žπ• π•žπ•–π•Ÿ

This is for every women.

Whos not quite feeling herself.

For the stay at home mums

For The working mums

For the women who are independent

For the women who’s wanting to change the world.

For the women who’s finding herself.

For the women who’s heart has been broken.

For the women who wants to improve her mindset.

For the women who’s knows what she wants and for the ones who are not quite sure.

For the women who don’t require validation.

For the women who own their power and for the ones who are yet to find theirs.

Empowerment is essential between women.

Support and love is needed not criticism and hate.

Being a women in todays world is tough finding your voice in a world that’s so loud is exhausting.

But with the support of each other we can accomplish anything.

Together as one.

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β„‚π•™π•’π•Ÿπ•˜π•– ℕ𝕠π•₯π•™π•šπ•Ÿπ•˜ & ℕ𝕠π•₯π•™π•šπ•Ÿπ•˜ β„‚π•™π•’π•Ÿπ•˜π•–π•€

Evening all ❀️

Isn’t life a funny old thing the experience of it all and the progression whilst transitioning to the next level.

It’s pretty rough going on just one soul.

I think the theory is called the human punchbag lets see how much you can take this time round.

Sometimes it takes more than strength sometimes you have to admit defeat and loose.

Even if we dont want to and at times of defeat that’s when we see people’s true colours and intentions.

Its been a pretty rough ride and at times im not quite sure how I’ve made it.

But i have.

The only way for me to heal is to…

Im the women who’s there for everyone else but herself.

I will literally put every other person in my life first before looking after me.

Love is love at the end of the day however hard it is on me.

I just wanted to say i had to pause for a moment and reflect on where i was going wrong in my life.

My communication and my social media has been quite at times with constant messages and replies can get to much it doesn’t actually mean i don’t want to reply but i simply haven’t got enough hours in the day to be constantly replying.

I realised all that time i was giving people who didn’t deserve it.

People i thought who where my friends that wasn’t understanding or supportive i now have no time for.

All the negative patterns I was allowing around me i no longer can stand it and ive taken extreme measurements that i dont allow myself to get caught up in it all again.

Finally things last week come to a fast and sudden stall.

There has to be a cut off point.

You have to say my heart or head cant take it anymore enough is enough.

You got to focus on you and you alone.

Even if its an…

You have to embrace change.

Being stuck right now doesn’t mean it’s forever.

It just means its a small step onto the next lesson in life.

What we allow will always continue!!!!

Today I’ve been on a hike with my girls to aid my weight loss process after 6lb weight loss this week.

I was determined to carry on in a postive manner.

We had great time out family bonding experience.

Just what we needed.

Its slow process but its getting there.

I felt very liberated that i thrown out majority of my bigger clothes beacuse i aint going back now only forward.

Im trying my best to see the bright side of life and putting change into motion as its desperately needed.

But i promise you after all the heartbreak and the pain.

Each day you wake up is a blessing and as every day passes the pain and heartbreak slowly starts to heal until there is only a tiny scar left in your soul thats the reminder that your strong and you survived.

Here’s a few pictures of today and my weightloss upto now ❀️

Love to you all 😊

Stacie 🐚 πŸ’‹ πŸ’„ ❀️ ❀️

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𝕃𝕖π•₯ π•Žπ•™π• π•–π•§π•–π•£ π•‹π•™π•šπ•Ÿπ•œ π•Žπ•™π•’π•₯𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣

Evening all ❀️

It’s been a while i hope you are all OK.

I love blogging late at night my mind is quite and im not thinking of everyday things.

These last few weeks I’ve really had to have a word with myself.

Everything ive wanted I’ve had to start putting into motion.

Some of my plans will ruffle a few feathers but now because im grown.

I do not really care for what others think of me.

Ive taken back my power i simply won’t engage in negative patterns anymore or will i hide what i think.

And say it out loud.

Im on my own path now focused on me..

Ive gave so much out i need to take care of me.

Removing yourself from a situation and realising that straight down the line it was…

Im in my peace now and however hard life gets i will always return to what I have learnt in the past.

This evening ive watched a fantastic film called Begin Again. (2013).

It’s about a girl and a boy who love music shes a singer /songwriter hes also very talented.

He gets offered a music contract but she doesn’t and under the pressure of success he buckles and meets his publist and falls in love with her.

But breaks up with her via a song he wrote.

With very raw emotions she crashes at a freind whos also a talented musician. She goes out to a bar on open mic night and her freind gets her to play one of her songs.

Where a has been music producer enters the bar after having a pretty rubbish day slightly intoxicated he sees her true potential.

They form unlikely friendship and start making music proper music people can relate too.

During a drunken night she decides to leave her ex a voicemail of a song she composed and sang so beautifully.

The ex listened and had a moment where commitments are made but not thought through properly.

So after her ex wanted to meet up with her she was hesitant to meet up until loneliness kicks in that’s when she thought she needed someone.

They both met up but it wasn’t the reunion he expected.

She’s claimed back her power and by using her music as an outlet she gets though it.

I found the storyline very relatable.

She had been through heartbreak.

Lost herself along the way.

Found comfort in her music even if it wasn’t everyone’s taste.

Gained her power back and realised who she was and she didn’t care how others perceived her to be.

She found her peace and fighting spirit again.

And realised that….

And that…

Thank so much for taking the time to read this blog.

Check out this amazing film on Netflix ❀️❀️

Love to you all 😊

Stacie 🐚 πŸ’‹ πŸ’„ ❀️ ❀️

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𝔸𝕕𝕒𝕑π•₯π•šπ•Ÿπ•˜

Hey everyone ❀️

Its been a wild and exhausting week.

Life can really hit you at all angles at times.

Your brain doesn’t cope with overload of information that fills your head when it all comes in at once.

Ive literally not had a minutes peace.

I can only apologise now for my absence.

I just wanted to give you a quick update with where im at whilst im on the exante diet.

Four days in and ive definitely not felt so rubbish in myself apart from migraines but that could be work and home related also.

Ive manged to loose 4lb since Wednesday which for me thats a great improvement.

Im am actually enjoying it at the moment it’s less hassle around food and prep of course i still cook for my two children but it’s so much easier and less time consuming.

One thing i will never give up is my Sunday lunch its my favourite meal of the week.

I’ve always had an issue with food i really don’t know what it is and why but..

After 12 years of abusing my body putting under extreme pressure on it to have the desire to be skinny i needed there to be a change.

I am now in…..

But what is it exactly.

Ketosis is a metabolic process. When the body does not have enough glucose for energy, it burns stored fats instead. This results in a buildup of acids called ketones within the body. Some people encourage ketosis by following a diet called the ketogenic, or keto, diet.

Im quite proud of myself for actually sticking to it and it really does run alongside my own life.

My cupboard is full of all my prep and shakes.

Not to mention the great range of products they have to offer.

So i just wanted to say im ok and hoping for good nighs sleep.

So it’s good night from me.

Love to you all

Stacie 🐚 πŸ’‹ πŸ’„ ❀️ ❀️

π•€π•ž 𝕀π•₯π•’π•Ÿπ••π•šπ•Ÿπ•˜ π•šπ•Ÿ π•₯𝕙𝕖 𝕒𝕀𝕙𝕖𝕀 𝕠𝕗 𝕨𝕙𝕠 𝕀 𝕦𝕀𝕖𝕕 π•₯𝕠 π•“𝕖.

Im taking my power back.. now dont you see.

Im no longer weak from who i used to be.

People expected me to fail to fall and crumble.

But i stayed grounded, brave & humble.

I didn’t seek revenge or turn out bitter.

I just got on with life beacuse im no quitter.

I love with every heartbeat and every fibre of my soul.

I now know that im a survivor.

And i now feel whole.

I’ve learnt that life is very complicated and there will always be ups and downs.

But if life knocks you off your feet.

Stick up for what you believe in and always stand your ground.

From every painful ending there is a lesson to be learned.

You will always be triumphant.

You will get the life you earned.

So here i am wild and free.

I rise from the ashes from the old me.

I am now complete and happy as can be.

Stacie Leanne 26102/2020

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𝕆𝕝𝕕 𝕨𝕒π•ͺ𝕀 π•¨π• π•Ÿπ•₯ π• π•‘π•–π•Ÿ π•Ÿπ•–π•¨ π••π• π• π•£π•€!

Hey everyone ❀️

Hope you’re having a positive week so far.

I want to share with you two things tonight.

First thing….. 🌈🌈 Double rainbows

Inwas on my way to work this morning and i was feeling abit nostalgic.

Listening to my music whist getting soaked by sudden downpour i would normally been in a terrible mood honstly it really does put me in a mood πŸ˜‚.

But i just felt the erge to ask the universe for a massive sign that if i would honestly be ok.

After everything i would feel complete again.

This was my sign…

Double Rainbow Meaning.
A double rainbow is considered a symbol of transformation and is a sign of good fortune in eastern cultures. The first arc represents the material world, and the second arc signifies the spiritual realm.

It made complete sense to me its time to progress and to become a better version of myself for myself.

Heres an lovely track i heard today from katy perry…

Double rainbow 🌈

Second thing i wanted to share with you all is ive been terribly unhappy last few months within my own skin.

Not quite knowing were i was or what i was doing decided enough was enough its time for a change starting with the main issue surrounding my life path my weight ive always been very body conscious about my weight and how Ive looked to others.

It all gets abit to much sometimes.

So now ive decide to try the exante diet.

Im not normally for fad diets

But ive herd nothing but great things from this program so i bit the bullet and ordered the four week plan retailing a Β£69.99 seems alot but thats four weeks of hard work and determination not to give up and stick at it.

Here’s a sneek peek at my exante box i will be happy if i know and look different.

I will be keeping you all upto date with my progress.

For now its good night from me sending my love, ❀️❀️

Stacie 🐚 πŸ’‹ πŸ’„ ❀️ ❀️

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π”Ύπ•£π• π•¨π•Ÿ

If you could see me now.

Know that I have grown.

I’m no longer the women I used to be.

Know now that my soul is home

I no longer float outside My body.

For now I am complete.

I no longer wish to find the person that you once did seek.

I now have a life… I now have hobbies.

I no longer wait about in hotel lobby’s

Back then you see I was very weak

See there is no part of the old me that is left and now you cannot seek.

You made every part of my body mind and soul ache into wanting you more and more.

I knew eventually I had to close the door.

Well in process it was killing me peice by peice.

I’m no longer the old stacie that you once did seek.

I hoped to never forget you like you forgot me so easily.

I’m just some women who loved you and don’t forget I was crazy.

A year has now passed since I saw your face.

And yes I’m still talking about the hurt with grace.

You see I’m still here with my eyes wide open and my heart still beats.

You didn’t distroy me completely… you just made me so weak.

Now I’m in my power and now I’ve changed.

I’m ready to live my life now I’m ready to love again.

24/02/2020

Stacie Leanne 🐚 πŸ’‹ πŸ’„ ❀️ ❀️

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𝕋𝕙𝕖 π•₯π•™π•šπ•Ÿπ•˜ π•šπ•€ π•ͺ𝕠𝕦 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 π•₯𝕠 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕝𝕝π•ͺ π•¨π•’π•Ÿπ•₯ π•₯𝕠 π•”π•™π•’π•Ÿπ•˜π•–.

Evening all ❀️

I just wanted to connect with you all this evening as I’ve not really been blogging a lot as of late.

I’ve been having to do a lot of life clearing and starting with a fresh mindset.

Have you ever just been so sick of yourself that you have had to kick yourself up the butt theoretically speaking.

But it’s true you have been stuck in a cycle for so long that it’s really vital that things need to change.

I have a fear that I’m wasting my life.

And life’s very short if you think about it take away all the nessary things like sleeping eating you know general day to day routines.

You get very little time to actually experience life.

When your a child everything is amazing like trips to zoo.. You see a giraffe and think wow I’d love to just sit with it pet it I wonder what it’s thinking.

Being an adult going to a zoo is like oh there’s a giraffe doesn’t look twice doesn’t wonder but just can’t wait to escape the giraffe House beacuse it stinks.

That’s what mostly adult life’s about we loose the ability to see the beauty in things.

We see negative and ignore the positives.

We close ourselves off and loose ourselves in this perception of what adult life is supposed to be like.

Go to school, get a job, fall in love, get married, have babies!!!

Then you wake up one day in a midlife crisis and think…

Or…

That’s great and all but life’s not stepford it’s reality.

Life’s not meant for structure its meant for us to actually live, experience & explore.

No man can never expect me to be any stepford wife… Not going to happen.

I don’t like routine it doesn’t suit me well I’ve got no choice to do it and to be honest I feel more lost than I’ve ever done in my life.

I do not want to be normal.

It may suit some but not me

I do not want to follow society or follow the normal path in life.

I’m only here as me once in this lifetime.

And whatever I learn from this lifetime I’ll take into the next one.

At times in life you get absolutely sick of everything I do most days.

But I’ve got to the point now where enough is enough.

I’ve got to get my head in the right frame of mind to make changes I need in order for me to progress.

The trouble with me is I listen to people to much and some times people’s intentions aren’t always in your best interest.

And the fear just takes over.

But now I’m more determined than ever not to show others but to prove to myself I can accomplish anything with willpower and determination.

I actually want to live not just to survive.

I want to feel love at every opportunity.

I want to experience adventure.

And most of all I want to evolve into the best version of myself.

So watch this space ❀️❀️❀️

Love to you all 😊

Stacie 🐚 πŸ’‹ πŸ’„ ❀️ ❀️

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