She was everything real in a world that’s make believe.

Hey everyone I’m late night blogging again for everyone who takes time to read my blog overseas I’m not sure what time it is but good morning good afternoon or good evening which ever one fits your timezone I hope your all OK.

Bit of a weird day for me today started work at 9am UK time and come home 39 minutes later to deal with a home emergency house dilemma.

Sucks being an adult at times you have all the is extra responsibility you have to deal with all the crappy little things that need doing on a regular basis.

Gone are the days when I only had to worry about if my shoes where on the right feet, my pants weren’t inside out and if I had my dinner money for lunch at school.

Now it’s all bills housing repairs and still sometimes I put my pants on inside out don’t think you ever grow out of that one.

Let me tell you a little bit about me not that I’m vain or anything but beacuse I don’t think many people can understand my personality and people don’t always give me a chance to get to know the real me.

I have to say I’m far from normal I’m not fragile like a flower I’m fragile like a bomb.

I can be the nicest person to the right kind of people but I can also see right through people even if sometimes I don’t want too but I do and I’m not afraid to say it either.

Im not into materialistic things I’m more minamlistic hate clutter and unorganised spaces think that’s the virgo in me.

I work extremely hard in life because I always thrive to be better than what I am and I love to help people because I think it’s important especially in the world we live in today compassion is very important.

And taking into consideration other people’s feelings is also very important.

Anyone who’s a virgo will understand this we over anyalize everything could be smallest of issue we turn into something major sorry but this has to be one of my bad traits.

I’m a massive gaming geek sims is one of my favourite games.

I love all things retro I definitely feel I was born in wrong era I was born in 1987 so I didn’t get to appreciate the 80s.

Oh I’m also a massive music fan I love all types of music well mostly not into heavy metal…

but more soul jazz motown I do love Aretha Franklin and etta James and and a bit of Sam Cooke too maybe my music taste is another blog post.

Have to give praise to Queen, elton John Prince, Phil Collins and of course the beatles

Question I get asked is am I moody apparently ive always got this serious face on me.

My answer to that is no I’m just reserved but I’m actually very funny.

I take life one day at a time I don’t like to plan two far ahead this drives my family and friends wild because I’m always last minute will put everything off untill I need to do it.

Never in any rush to make choices untill I’ve weighed up all pros and cons but I’m also very impulsive.

Confusing I know.

If I want something I don’t stop untill I’ve got it very determined..

But honstly after everything I’m working on being positive about life..

The fact I’m not well educated I didn’t go to university 🎓 infact I hated school but I’ve not done to bad I’ve gained qualifications in other ways but I’m very creative in my work and music.

I have to say I absolutely love anything that’s a bit odd and unexplained and no that doesn’t mean my relationships but most of them have ended that way. The years I’ve wasted oh well lessons learnt.

I’ll stop selling myself now 😂

Life lessons

I believe everyone goes through transitions in life some are easy some are very difficult some make us cringe some make us cry but it’s the transition we learn from grow from they are the ones that make us stronger.

Personally I’m in a much better place in my life I feel I’ve just ended a rather difficult transition.

whilst i was in this transition I didn’t feel like I was me kind of like how ant man feels when he’s stuck between dimensions just floating around not knowing how long it’s going to last for and if he will ever get back to reality at all.

But you do eventually get back to reality and whatever mess you made along the way will make you a better person.

From my previous blogs you can see I suffer daily with mental health issues but you know something everyone has their demons some people are brave to admit their issues it’s nothing to be ashamed of either.

I’m finding that out now facing issues head on dealing with them made me realise life is to short people will love and hate you but don’t let that affect you as a person

Keep going go for what you want and don’t have any regrets.

Love to you all

Stacie xx🐚💋💄

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Midweek vibes ✌️✌️

Happy wendsday all

Bit of early morning blogging ready to go to work 😴😲
I didn’t sleep brilliant but….
My brain wouldn’t rest I kept finding myself going over and over all the things that I could of done differently.

Revisiting the past isn’t always the best place to go just before you go to sleep.

I dream a lot quite often my dreams turn into reality but never the ones that involves money or dating Jamie rednapp don’t ask I’m normally freddie Flintoff kind of girl but no Jamie it is.

Anyway It’s the feeling of being in a place even though you know you have never been there before or it’s like being in a situation you know you haven’t dealt with before but you have this strong sense that you have been there before or dealt with the situation before.

Its so odd….

But on the other hand they say where your heart goes to before sleep is your calling weither it be someone or some thing it’s the way of the universe telling you yes this is meant to be.

Mine always takes me back to one situation and maybe a person but I’m not telling all yet.

Here’s a little update…

So after a really rubbish weekend and nearly ending up in A&E.

I had some brilliant news I’ve been offered a position to be a brand ambassador for a company this was based on how much they loved my blog and my way with words.

I’m so pleased that people take time out of their busy life’s to read my blog it’s amazing I’m truly grateful for everyones support.

I do have other things in my pipeline of life but at the moment I can’t say too much but I will make Sure to share with you all.

Everything seems to be going OK at the moment 🤞

Just wished u could sort one more situation out but I figure I just need to let it go I’ve tried my best but sometimes it’s not good enough.

Anyway I’m off to work now people I will keep you updated.

Lots of love stacie xxx

When the penny finally drops just leave it there.

Hey everyone.

How are we all this evening?

I’ve given up watching the Liverpool match that’s enough of that for one evening.

Tonight I wanted to blog about a situation I’ve been in for quite a while.

I don’t know if any of you have ever been in a limbo situation not quite sure what to do next and your sort of going with the flow of things.

For the past two years I’ve been in and out of what ide call limbo state I’m finally starting to sort my life out then something else pulls me back to undecided space in my brain which looks a bit like runway at Gatwick Airport chaotic 🤔

Just lately I’ve been finding myself more and more not really giving a crap about what people think of me.

You can be at your truest form as a human being and it still not make a difference to someone some times the..

Penny drops and you just have to think nah not picking you up this time.

Being a human is hard at times and being in a world with other humans just sucks unless you find a few good humans then your winning.

Would be much easier to be a cat right?

You know I blame myself for a lot of things in my life I’m the master of my own key so I’ve got the power right?

Wrong because we get hit with situations like relationships and houses finances and kids and surround ourselves with people we don’t really like.

And faking it untill we make it.

But when penny finally drops your sitting there thinking stacie your a complete fool your mum and dad didn’t raise no weak ass they raised a Beyoncé and now your raising two mini Beyoncé.

Why the hell have you allowed one situation to swallow you whole and crush everything that’s good about you to women who doenst even know where her matching socks are kept.

Seriously like come on women aren’t put on the earth to wash mens shitty underpants ladies or to make sure their tea is on the table after work it’s 21st century go out there and hold your own make your man wash his own shitty underpants and show him where the fridge is.

That’s what I say

Trouble with the oppersite sex most of them haven’t got a clue what they want from life notice I said most not all that would be unfair some men do have there head in the game and not in their pants ladies.

Not all are the same ladies but good ones are very far and few between.

I sound like I’m hating men but I don’t hate them just find it irrataing when nothing makes sense there’s no logic and to be honest when you have been going round on this ferris wheel for two years it’s time to get off.

You have done what you can said all you can say nothing else you can do.

So when the penny finally drops and you know your worth more than that penny leave it where it falls and walk off.

Best advice I can give to myself and I best advice i can share with you all 😊.

Ain’t got time for NEGTIVTY I’m 32 in three weeks and years go by so quickly so have to enjoy life whilst you can.

I just have to say I’m super excited for my birthday I have a surprise night away that’s been planned for me and also a recording studio experience that’s been gifted to me.

So here I am… I am me that’s all I can ever be.

If your lucky enough to see the real me then well done you’ve completed jumanji.

Love to you all 😊 🐚💋❤️

Stacie xx

Keep singing your heart out 🎤❤️💔

Evening all ❤️First day back at work and it wasn’t too bad I suppose.Hope your all having a great Monday I just wanted to share with you how I’ve coped the last 18 months with a very heart breaking period in my life and how it’s taken some sorting out and finding myself again to finally gain some sort of confidence back.Well you may have visited my blog before and you may have seen how I’ve been using my creativity to get my feelings out my system and how I had buried them deep in my soul for so long it’s become unhealthy for me so I’ve been channelling my energy through my voice and my love of music.I’ve always love to sing from a very young age but I was never very confident to sing infront of people I’m still not 💯 now but I’m starting to overcome my fear.Even if not the next Witney Huston God rest her soul.But I have my own style and I’m OK with that it may not be to everyone’s taste but you can’t be liked by everyone right??Singing for me is perfect way to get my feelings across I simply cannot say what I need to say through talking ide rather sing or write it just comes out better.I only every sing songs that mean something to me and reflect past trauma or situations I’ve been faced with but some I just love beacuse it reminds me of certain people I have in or did have in my life.What I always remember is that no matter what happens in my life the world doesn’t stop turning and time doesn’t stop ticking away and there will always be a better day.I found that singing is best therapy for me it’s helped me massively.Like I said I have my own style but I’m always pushing myself to do better.I really hope that people understand that you don’t need to be perfect being flawed isn’t a crime it means your human.So whether it’s music, painting, singing or writing you use to express yourself remember it doesn’t matter what other people think it’s about how it makes you feel and how it impacts your life.Here are three songs I’ve covered that ide like to share with you I hope you enjoy.

Make you feel my love Adele
My newest song recored 29th of August 2019 at 7.30pm
Love to you allfrom a perfectly flawed stacie xx 🐚💋

The pink stuff 🧽🧼

Hey everyone..

I’ve thoroughly enjoyed my 10 days off work I’ve manged to do lots with this kids and catch up with things around the house dispite feeling a little under the weather.

Firstly I would like to say wtf has happened to the weather to be honest Ive never seen storms like it In all my life but I suppose that’s climate change for you.

So next month on the 7th I am turning 32 😳.

I used to get excited about nights out with my freinds getting very drunk and getting up to things I dare not speak about.

But now it’s little things in life like finding a cleaning product I’ve been after finally after months of not being able to get any due to people stockpilling and reselling at silly prices I’ve managed to get my hands on some and its this beauty…

Yes the famous pink stuff by stardrops my freind Mary at work loves the stuff so I thought ide give it a go.

May I just add In no shape or form is my house minging but I’m ashamed I left my oven in this state.

I’m forever cleaning up and getting new products and electrical items and gadgets to try in my home and believe me I’m no Mrs hinch and I don’t claim to be as there’s only one Mrs hinch 👐 and trust me her house is out of this world stunning Infact she’s given me a lot of inspiration for my own home.

Anyway stacie stop waffling on…

So I decided to tackle my oven I absolutely hate fecking cleaning it as the next video you will probably tell its not been cleaned for a while but like I said don’t judge I just put stuff off I hate doing its just my nature.

First of all bit about the product

Stardrops The Pink Stuff

A tough cleaning paste that is gentle on surfaces but tough on stains.

Ideal for cleaning saucepans, barbecues, ceramic tiles, glass, rust, sinks, uPVC, garden furniture, paintwork, boats, cooker tops, copper and much more.

The Pink Stuff is a great all round cream cleaner.

Directions for Use

  • The Pink Stuff is a mild abrasive paste cleaner and should be used with care
  • Always test on inconspicuous area
  • Apply using a soft cloth or sponge
  • Rub gently before rinsing off with clean water
  • Polish with a clean dry cloth

Description

Product Description

The Pink Stuff Tough Stain Remover All Purpose Miracle Paste Cleaner 500g Cleans almost anything! Hands, saucepans, glass, ceramic tiles, barbecues, upvc, windows, garden furniture, baths, caravans, sinks, skirting boards, copper, rust, shower taps, shower trays, paintwork, boats, ovens, scuffs.

Features & details

  • A tough cleaning paste that is gentle on surfaces but tough on stains;Ideal for cleaning saucepans, barbecues, ceramic tiles and much more;Removes rust and discolouration from metal surfaces;Ideal for removing stubborn marks from hard surfaces;A great all round cream cleaner
  • Ideal for cleaning saucepans, barbecues, ceramic tiles and much more
  • Removes rust and discolouration from metal surfaces
  • Ideal for removing stubborn marks from hard surfaces
  • A great all round cream cleaner

This product retails from 89p to 99p please take note that when purchasing online it maybe a little more expensive when adding shipping costs.

If you can’t wait for shipping it can be purchased from supermarkets the range, amazon poundstrecher, B&M bargains & home bargains in the UK only.

So does stacie rate this product overall.

WELL SEE FOR YOURSELF….

Answer is yes I do unfortunately I couldn’t get the glass discolouration off but I’m pretty happy with what it’s achieved.

I must say you do need wirewool pad to help get stubborn marks off.

Overall I’m happy give it 4 ⭐⭐⭐⭐

I felt it did work and helped remove stubborn marks and overall I didn’t have a mental breakdown trying to clean my oven. #midlifecrisis

Thanks for reading my product review I’ve posted a few links below were you can purchase the pink stuff from online for all my overseas followers ❤️👇👇

amazon link the the pink stuff

the range UK the pink stuff link

Happy cleaning everyone 🐚💋

Lots of love 😍

Stacie xx

Life’s a beach 🌊🎢🎡🎠⛳

Morning all..

Hope you are well very early blog for me I’m off work so I should be sleeping in.

This weekend me and my girls spent some quality time together we headed up the coast to a seaside town called Blackpool..

It’s not to everyone’s taste but its great for a little break away with the kids or for a weekend away with your friends.

There is Plenty to do for example here is a few places..

Blackpool Tower 🗼

Pleasure Beach 🎠🎢

Madame tussauds 🎸🎥

Sealife Centre 🦈

Sandcastles water park 👙

Graffiti golf ⛳

Ripley believe it or not 🔮

Oh and of course coral Island has to be my favourite amusement arcade ever.

They also have a zoo but it’s a bit further out of Blackpool but it’s very easy to get to.

It’s always a bit strange leaving seaside town where you live to go to another one but sometimes it makes you appreciate what you have on your doorstep.

Whilst I was there sat in a nice little gin tipple bar on the seafront sipping away at my marshmallow gin I was sat chatting to a couple who was from Birmingham.

They had brought their three year old son away for the first time they explained that they very rarely get to go away because of personal reasons.

Comes to the question of where I was from due to my accent sounding familiar so I told them my story very briefly.

At that moment I realised how lucky I actually am I know the beach or seaside isn’t everyone’s thing but sometimes you forget and take for granted what you have.

So back to my trip to blackpool..

Spending time with my girls was well overdue OK so the little one can get a bit to excited and start over reacting but a talk from mum normally solves it.

We had great fun bowling and at graffiti golf.

And at sandcastles water park.

And on the piers we had fun in the amusement arcades just acted silly for a while nice to let your hair down and not be so serious all the time.

Like I said blackpool isn’t for everyone but there is good and bad everywhere where ever you go.

Just spending time with my girls was amazing.

If your thinking of going to blackpool sometime in the near future.

Please check out there big ticket offers for attractions.

Link below 👇 👇

Blackpool big ticket 🎫 link

And for more local attractions and travel and accommodation advice follow the link below 👇 👇

visit Blackpool link 🔗

As for the rest of the week I will be planning more things to do with my girls.

Today it’s toy story 4 and pizza hut 👭❤️

Have a fabulous day all…

Lots of love stacie xx

Breathe for a while ❤️

Hiya everyone sorry I’ve not blogged for a while.

I’m now on annual leave from work and trying to spend time with my girls.

I Really just wanted to take time out from normal day to day routine.

I’ve been trying to figure out what’s next for me in life which way my path may take me after an upsetting week with my eldest regarding parental issues emotions have been running high in my household.

I’m very spiritually aware firstly I have to say this because you maybe wondering how I can feel what I feel but I just feel the vibe or the energy isn’t quite right with people at the moment towards me if feels very off.

This is why I’ve decided to take some time away from people it’s not easy but sometimes I know I’m not the easiest of people but ide never hurt someone intentionally Ive always tried and speak from the truest part of myself my heart.

I can’t quite discribe it making sure everyone else is OK has got to the point that I’ve forgotten about me and how I feel I think everyone needs a breather every now and again and If I have to push people away I will do so.

Thing is if you don’t respond straight away or make the first move all the time people can get arsey I really haven’t got time for that.

At the moment I have to be selfish for my own sake I have to put myself first.

Thing is with my life people have always got to have a say what I do what I invest my time in what I wear what I look like how much weight I’ve lost or haven’t but in all honesty I couldn’t care less only person who needs imput in my life is me.

I’m getting pretty annoyed at being questioned all the time so I’ve decided I’m going to take time away from everything yes I will still be a good mum a good daughter sister and freind but please understand not everything I do needs to be cleared first so…

Next week or so I will be spending quality time with my girls something I don’t do very much due to other lifestyle commitments like work and daily life.

So don’t panic when I don’t reply straight away I always will when I can.

Peace out and much love

Stacie xx❤️💜💕

Have a little faith ❤️🐚💋

Evening all ❤️

As I sit In my garden listening to a song is that all right by lady gaga from the motion picture a star is born.

In peace and quite watching the sunset with the smell of beachy air around me I’ve come to a realisation I should be so bloody proud of myself I could actually cry you don’t know how far you have come in life untill you realise your past really doenst define you as a person anymore.

I’m actually where I’m meant to be right here right now present and maybe not always correct but everything I’ve achieved I’ve done from strength and sometimes I don’t know where I pull it all from but every time I get knocked back I keep going.

It’s so easy to compare yourself to others but as humans we are capable of hiding the truth our struggles we have to be strong to put on a brave face.

But every now and again our Brain just clicks and says yeah you know something your alright you.

I don’t want a medal or any sympathy from my blog I just want to share my life experience with people.

But over the past 11 years I’ve had two babies moved 4 times left my family and freinds behind to provide a better life for my girls by the sea had failed relationships and freindship I’ve been hurt countless times battled with illness and my weight and also my confidence is shot to shit but I’m working on that.

I believe fate never gives us anything we can’t handle strength comes from the darkest places.

So now I’m finding out who I am.

And I’m starting to respect myself again.

Maybe it’s time to let the old ways die…

Love to you all where ever you are

Stacie 💋🐚 xxxx

When life really gives you lemons you really must make lemonade ♥️

Hey everyone I have been really quite the past week I’ve been working and the heat almost killed me off.

Us brits can’t deal with weather if its to hot we moan if its to cold we moan so mother nature can’t win.

It’s the weekend and it’s absolutely pissing it down typical I planned a few things with the girls but unfortunately the weather has other ideas…

Never mind I only have one week left at work untill I have ten days off work whooop can’t wait.

So I have to say I’m in a pretty good place at the moment I’m really starting to sort my life out.

My health has improved slightly I’ve tried my hardest to stay within my gluten free diet but at times I’ve slipped.

Not a major issue though as I know it takes time to adjust.

At the moment I’m just doing my own thing working on myself to become a better person I suppose that when you come from a dark place you have to rebuild yourself and you may not fit back perfectly as you once was but all the best people are flawed.

I’m not focusing on a situation now I’m just letting it be if people want me they know how to reach me if not then I’m cool with that sometimes we outgrow people it’s life.

I have to say after coming from a dark place you see the world differently you notice all the little things that you once was to busy to notice.

And that it doesn’t matter if things aren’t perfect because nothing very rarely is mistakes are made by everyone but what the difference is if we openly admit and try and rebuild rather than run away and hide.

My main issue I’ve had to deal with is learning to 👇👇👇

You have to try for your own peace of mind nothing hurts us more than not knowing well I used to think that but what is always meant for us always radiates back to us.

So what’s meant to be is what’s meant to be what isn’t let that shit go even if it breaks your heart.

Mean while I’m focusing on myself my girls work and my business not only do I focus seashells and lipgloss blog but I now have a new business venture to focus on.

Please say hello to Street Geek custom attire..

This has been a dream of mine for a while I’ve just never tried to forfil it.

Why did I deicide to go into custom designing whilst I’m so busy with life in general well here’s why everyone needs an escape from daily life and we all have a create flair in us all you just have to find your style along side singing and music I am very creative and I needed an outlet to focus on.

So this is why I’m going forward with my idea.

Myself I love band clothing and printed clothing but when you buy from high street stores they are made in there millions so. Chances are you will see a lot of people wearing the same tshirt.

I love individuality I like having things others haven’t but with everything being so mass made now its hard to make yourself stand out.

So this is my vision making custom made clothing this includes tshirts vests hoodies jackets for the moment that are made for the music mad TV series watching movie fanatic geeks everywhere.

I am very excited to share this with you and I hope you wish me success.

So street geek is my new baby so now I need to mould it into my vision and let my creative side show.

I will let you all know when it’s all in motion…

Have a good weekend all hope the weather is better than Merseyside at the moment.

Love to you all

Stacie xxxx

I guess that’s why they call it the blues 🙄🙄

Evening all I really hope you have had a good weekend.

I’ve had very mixed emotions anxiety peaked again think it’s the bulid up of my daughter leaving school and few other issues from last week just got a little bit to much for me.

I seem to have calmed down alot now but my stomach is still in knots.

I have to apologies for my post I had taken down I was in a very dark place on Saturday emotions where still high.

Hadn’t slept much hadn’t eaten properly felt slightly dehydrated just found it hard to find the energy to move off the sofa.

As I lay there I just had this surge of anger come over me at this point I was so sick and tired of letting people get me down and me feeling like crap for no reason.

So I thought no more I’ve had enough got up cleaned my whole house top to bottom not only was I knackered afterwards but I felt proud of myself after feeling so shitty I got up stopped feeling sorry for myself and did something productive.

Sometimes you do your own head in with the way you are in life.

This is a big thing for me to admit but I’ve let myself go the past few months not given a shit about what I’ve eaten not been taking care of myself mentally and physically.

Time to make a change I’ve pushed so many genuine people away just because of my own insecurities.

I’ve Gotten to a point In your life where your getting on your own tits and it needs to stop.

My main issue for me is my sleep routine it’s rubbish I can sleep all day but when night comes I’m rubbish.

I’ve tried lots of sleep products and medications none seem to work I’ve tried sleepy creme from lush again did not do a thing for me.

Until I found this 👇👇👇…

Avons very own sleep serenity I absolutely love it helps me drift of to sleep easily just spray a bit on your bedding before bed it’s as easy as that.

Retails in at about £3.99 bottle can be ordered from your local Avon rep or online.

I really hope this week I can sort myself and my life out better I’m long overdue some positive behaviour.

Love

Stacie xx ❤️💕