Cuppa tay!

𝕀 𝕤𝕖𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕓𝕖𝕒𝕦𝕥𝕪

I see your beauty.

Within every fibre of your soul.

Its a sight to me that never gets old.

As i watch your world evolve.

Issues in which I’d love to solve.

I’ve seen you happy ive seen you sad.

Every emotion that you’ve ever had.

But i still see you when you try to hide behind your smile.

But that’s just your way of coping and your style.

As i stand here in my thoughts.

And i watch the world pass by

And my stomach is all in knots.

I saw the beauty in you even when you didn’t.

I wanted to tell you that i see you.

The real you.

And still i stand here.

Seeing every hidden part of your soul.

Dark and light.

But still im here.

You pushed me away.

But im still here.

Somewhere floating around in between all this beautiful mess.

Walking my own path.

But always remember i saw your beauty.

When all you saw was you..

Stacie Leanne 8/0512020

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#life

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#selfcare

#love

#poetry

𝕀 𝕝𝕚𝕜𝕖 𝕞𝕪 𝕞𝕠𝕟𝕖𝕪 𝕨𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖 𝕀 𝕔𝕒𝕟 𝕤𝕖𝕖 𝕚𝕥.. ℍ𝕒𝕟𝕘𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕚𝕟 𝕞𝕪 𝕔𝕝𝕠𝕤𝕖𝕥.

Evening all ❤️

Sending you all well wishes.

My working week is over and somebody please for the love of god take my bank card off me.

One thing I’ve learned during lockdown is that me and the Internet don’t mix when it comes to online shopping.

Every social media platform i have is filled with sale’s and offers.

Temptation is hard to deal with.

But with me loosing so much weight all my old clothes don’t fit right anymore even some of my shoes are loose.

Loosing weight off your feet is strange isn’t it.

I’ve purchased a few clothing items from boohoo, but im trying to revamp my style a little as I feel pretty stuck sometimes on what to wear and how to connect to others.

I believe it or most people do judge from first impressions.

It’s important to give yourself an identity you can be confident in.

I do like to look nice and feel confident it brings out my best side and the real me.

I dont really have a style nor do i follow fashion trends i just like what I like see how it fits and go from there.

One thing about me is that im not materialistic.

i don’t actually find anyone attractive or interesting that seem to have it all.

I work hard for my money so I’m happy to treat myself every now and again.

Lifes for living not waiting for what ifs.

You can wait a lifetimes for something that’s within the moment.

To find that moment never comes.

But what matters is that we don’t loose ourselves in the process.

I know I’ve changed psychically and mentally i didn’t see progress until few weeks ago but im finding myself again and finding that life really isn’t as hard as people say it is.

Here is my boohoo haul…

Whole outfit cost me £22 i am very pleased with the fit and the style.

I really hope you like my new boohoo haul.

For now im shattered and in need of a goodnight sleep.

Love to you all 😊 😊

#seashellsandlipglossblog

#life

#blogger

#ukbloggers

𝕊𝕙𝕖 𝕠𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕜𝕤 𝕓𝕖𝕒𝕔𝕦𝕤𝕖 𝕤𝕙𝕖 𝕨𝕒𝕤 𝕦𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕣-𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖𝕕.

Hey everyone ❤️

Hope you are all OK.

Im back again with another blog this time it’s about meeting soulmates.

I get asked alot of questions about love and how i see certain aspects in love and the soulmate question comes up alot.

I’ve been rather unlucky in love.

I don’t think im actually destined to be 💯 happy in life but there again i don’t think anyone is 💯 truly happy.

So soulmates its not as simple as bringing two human beings together and both being symmetrical and mirroring each other and thinking oh we fit let’s just give it ago we must be soulmates.

Now im not judging anyone who’s been in a relationship or got into a relationship that way but being symmetrical isn’t a good trait for a true soul mate.

The universe wouldn’t put two souls together who are exactly the same, there isnt any lesson to be learnt from that.

Infact soul mates are very hard to navigate it doesn’t mean they wouldn’t hurt you either infact a break up with a soul mate is very messy.

Im going to debunk some myths and give you some facts surrounding a soulmate connection.

1. You just know.
Something deep inside tells you this is the perfect one for you. It’s as if there is a spiritual force pushing you to let go of everything you previously expected and to give of yourself completely.

Where intuition plays a massive part in a soul mate connection it may not mean this person is perfect for you and the relationship will be plain sailing infact soul mate connections are rarely plain sailing they are never straight forward.

2. You’re paths have crossed before.
Soulmates have met each other in previous life.

You may not have connected, but you were in the same place, at the same time.

But it wasn’t the right time even in the same lifetime you can miss each other, or often get together at the wrong time which can then lead to one person dismissing the relationship all together.

And just passing it off as not right for each other.

3. Your souls meet at the right time.
Each person has to be ready to receive the soul connection.

You have to be prepared to meet your soulmate. It could be that you have to go through a relationship that doesn’t work out, or that you’re not ready to ditch your “perfect person checklist,” but when it comes to soulmates- timing is everything.

This theory is incorrect beacuse you can meet your soulmate at the most difficult time in life and still push them away it can get extremely messy and it takes time for both parties to see sense in the connection. its normally when the oppersite party gives in and trys to move on and the other person finally realises how deep a connection is.

4. The quite space.
Being quiet together is comforting like a fluffy down blanket on a cold winter night. Whether you are reading in the same room, or driving in the car, there’s a quiet peace between you.

This theory is correct soulmates dont need to talk the back side of donkey off infact people who are deeply connected share many quite times even in the strangest of moments.

And it’s often seen as an awkward situation between both parties if there isn’t understanding and can be misinterpreted as a bad match.

5. You respect each others opinions and differences.

Often soulmates are polar opposite. At times this is challenging. These are the times when you are being forced to let the other person complete you. You still have your own opinion, but instead of agreeing to disagree, there is a deep level of respect for each other. You listen and honor the differences.

This theory is correct you don’t need to be the same to understand and respect but the connection between you both will allow you to understand and relate to each others feelings.

Soulmates can sometimes come across as cold and not very understanding but they understand alright more so than other people you may have dated.

This is because of the connection you share the respect you have dispite your different opinions you allow each other to completely be yourselves without judgment or expectations of change.

6. You know how to apologise and mean it.
It’s not easy to say “I’m sorry” or admit that you did something that hurt the person you love.

Soulmates realize that their actions or words cause harm. Even if they feel justified in their point of view, if their partner was hurt by it, they can easily apologize for the harm they have caused.

Well im on the fence with this one fokes.

Again soul mate connections are tough alot of misunderstanding and also stubborn patterns of behaviour again i say most soul mate connections are complete opposites that’s what makes it work eventually when they both see the bigger picture.

It takes time its unlike anything or any other relationship you’ve known.

At times it seems like too much effort.

Soulmates will bicker and argue over silly things and they will both know how to rub each other up the wrong way.

But from all the confusion they will complete get each other and still stand in there own personal power.

You see soulmates aren’t about finding a mirror image of ourselves it’s about finding a connection with someone, that’s so unique it goes past having similar interests its unlike anything we have ever felt before in our lifetime.

It cannot be explained or understood it’s a force that brings to human beings together when their at their most vulnerable.

Don’t mistake a soulmate connection for a bad connection it takes time, trust and love.

Love to you all 😊

Stacie 🐚 💋 💄 ❤️ ❤️

#seashellsandlipglossblog #life

#love #straightfromtheheart

#Soulmates

𝕋𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕚𝕤 𝕞𝕖

Happy Sunday morning all.

Late night blogging again yes I’ve had a few alcoholic beverages.

And I feel relaxed and in my power.

Again i apologies for the lack of blogging past few days.

This isn’t my full time job its something I love doing and at the moment everything pretty much the same each day.

It’s difficult to try remain positive but if needs must.

We are being encouraged to talk be open about our emotions and thoughts to people who are closest to us.

Weither its by phone or by video chat it’s been known to help people with mental health problems.

You should never feel alone or that people don’t care or won’t listen…

Beacuse that’s not true.

Each day i get up and like most people i don’t know what im going to be facing also like most people.

I have days where i feel fine and other times i dont feel fine but that’s just my life.

Trying to sell yourself to a world that aint buying is a destructive path to take.

We go through situation and relationships each time we are dealt a tough hand we want to quit, run and hide away.

I’ve gone through metamorphosis, transformation in life.

From destructive patterns ive found out who i am and with the same heart but a changed mindset I’ve changed the way I see life I’ve found my power.

I won’t just settle for ok or it will do, im now completely free from how others view me.

Aslong as im being me im being my authentic self then i know I’ll be ok.

It’s ok to drop the persona you don’t need to hide how you are doing or what you are thinking.

People wait a whole life time to be themselves untill its to late and there’s not much time left.

Holding on to hate will only poison your own soul.

Not being honest with someone beacuse your scared of there reaction isn’t living in truth its putting plaster over the cracks and expecting it to last a lifetime.

One thing I’ve realised past few months is that you can be the nicest person on earth and someone’s still going to take a disliking to you just beacuse you are you.

Is inevitable it needs to happen to make us grow as human beings.

Im now in my power I’ve truly changed…

Yes i still moan, yes i still cuss and yes intime I’ll love with every fiber of my soul.

But as for now…

Love to you all 😊 😊

Stacie 🐚 💋 💄 ❤️

#seashellsandlipglossblog

#life

#blogger

#ukbloggers

#love

“𝔻𝕠𝕟’𝕥 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕣𝕪, 𝕕𝕠𝕟’𝕥 𝕓𝕖 𝕒𝕗𝕣𝕒𝕚𝕕 𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣, 𝕓𝕖𝕔𝕒𝕦𝕤𝕖….

It’s just a…..

Evening all ❤️

I trust you are all OK again sending virtual hugs to all my national and international reader’s.

Tonight its going to be a slightly deeper blog post.

I would like to talk about emotional and mental support in life in general.

Again I know its about emotion but this really runs deep.

In a time where we have nothing but time to think about everything we wouldn’t normally think about.

Ive herd more and more people are actually being more open and talking to people about emotions and experiences.

That they wouldn’t normally talk about.

Insecurities run deep and can lead you on to a very dark path of self destruction.

I have walked this path alot of times.

Linked to…

And self doubt asking ourselves all sorts of questions.

I personally hate confusion not knowing where you stand with someone.

Humans need some sort of consistency in life.

If someone or a situation doesn’t have a slight bit of consistency things tend to derail and alot of people feel a little lost too.

Insecurity can actually really mess up situations and experiences that can be amazing for you but self doubt and the little dark cloud of negativity will float above your head.

When you actually experience emotional unbalance like this you tend to push away people who you love and who loves you and actually the one’s who care for you.

This is called flight or fight mode and defense goes up and you shut down emotionally.

Due to past hurt and experiences.

It can be scary moving on from a situation where that’s all you’ve ever known or choosing to love again after a very heartbreaking situation.

But one thing you must not take with you during your moving on stage is….

The feeling of dread and a thought pattern that situations from your past and that they may repeat themselves again.

You have learnt you have grown from your past situation and connections its your learning experience that moulds you into being a better person and make you..

Don’t push people away who love you and care for you.

It’s very rare to find someone who genuinely cares about you and expects nothing in return.

Those are the ones you need to keep close to your heart.

Life’s all about taking risks if it doesn’t work out well that’s fine dust yourself off and start again.

There’s no such thing as an easy life unfortunately everything we have dealt with or will deal with is sent our way to test us.

Fear wants us to put bigger locks on our hearts and the doors to our future pathways

Where as love wants us to be all as one and give people a fair chance.

That seed you have planted in your mind the one that’s blackened your soul need removing and you need to understand you are loved and are worthy of a chance to be yourself you deserve excitement and to love again and that’s the ride of life.

Love to you all 😊

Stacie 🐚 💋 💄 ❤️ ❤️

#seashellsandlipglossblog

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#whenyouknowyouknow

𝔸𝕟 𝕌𝕟𝕥𝕠𝕝𝕕 𝕊𝕥𝕠𝕣𝕪…

Evening all ❤️

Sending virtual hugs to you all 😊

I’ve decided to blog tonight about a question i got asked about blogging and how much of your life do choose to share with your readers.

It’s kind of a difficult situation to put yourself in being a blogger beacuse you’re allowing people to know your inner most feelings & thoughts.

Like most things in life you take a risk by sharing your life with others around you that aren’t close to you.

Giving your reader’s an insight into your life and you’re experiences i feel is important not only for people to understand you but for you to actually feel comfortable and confident to share yourself with 1,000s of readers on a week to week basis.

I got asked if there was an alternative motif for my blogging but the answer to that is no.

You can’t force anyone to read your words or experiences but its their own choice to click the link.

Ive shared over the past year alot of ups, downs, heartache and happiness and i really hope people can understand and see how ive grown out of my old shell and made myself comfortable in my new surroundings.

There’s some aspects in my life i would love to blog about but don’t due to sheer hesitation.

Maybe in years to come i can openly speak about them but at the moment i think i will hold on to them.

Another question i get asked is do bloggers get a lot of freebies?

Answer to that is no I’ve had a small handful of freebies but most the products or places i review are item’s or events ive paid for myself out of my hard earned cash.

Im not in blogging for that its for the love of me expressing myself and sharing my experiences with my readers.

Im not rich i dont have fancy car infact i dont drive… Looser cruiser for me.

My house isn’t lavish but its home.

Most the time im an emotional wreak after a tough day i would just like to sleep or maybe put on sweatpants and throw my hair up in a messy bun. Watching weird and wonderful tv series on Netflix trying no to eat a small skip full of junk food.

On the other hand i can be motivated, healthy, determined and want to make my mark on the world.

I will always..

And keep blogging despite what people think of me and what motifs people think i have.

Ive grown im in my power and ive learnt to love myself.

I will always be me and i will always be true.

Love to you all 😊

Stacie 🐚 💋 💄 ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

#seashellsandlipglossblog

#life

#blogger

#ukbloggers

#selfcare

#love

𝔹𝕖 𝕨𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒𝕣𝕖.. 𝕆𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕨𝕚𝕤𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕨𝕚𝕝𝕝 𝕞𝕚𝕤𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕝𝕚𝕗𝕖.

Two roads diverged in the middle of my life.

I heard a wise man say

I took the road less traveled by

And that’s made the difference every night and day.

Evening all ❤️

I wish you all well.

All is quite and my mind is rested.

I haven’t blogged for a few days ,I’ve kind of been doing my own thing.

Trying to switch off from daily life, ive manged to get so much done and found time to myself and to pick up a book.

That’s very rare for me to concentrate long enough to read a few chapters but I’ve manged to keep my mind clear to do so, im quite pleased with myself.

The one thing ive learnt from the past couple of weeks is not to hold on to hate.

Everyone is feeling very mixed emotions at the moment, everyone is finding it hard.

But what i do feel is that my life and my mindset has changed, i do not take life for granted anymore.

Everything even more so than before.

Many times I’ve been at a crossroads in my life..

I’ve thought and felt so many emotions..

Which path do i take, what happens if it doesn’t work out.

There’s nothing more scary than the unknown.

But you have to take a deep breath and trust your instincts.

All we can be to each other is compassionate, understanding & loving even if we’re not that lovable in that moment.

Feeling alone & being alone are two different aspects of life’s lessons either one can be a painful lesson but can always be changed nothing is left undone.

I feel for people who are alone it can become a dark and dangerous place to be.

Thinking that no one cares….

Never ever push someone away due to fear…

People who stick around when you’re not quite yourself are people who truly care and understand what it’s like to feel to be alone.

Please allow them to help….

We wish our lives away to much we forget where we are and who’s around us in our hour of need.

Where you are now is a path you created you took a deep breath you took a chance it might not be perfect.

Taking the easier path isn’t always your true path but dont allow self doubt to cloud your judgement.

But don’t forget to…

This is most important and don’t be so hard on yourself…

Your doing the best you can.

Live in the present not the past or the future.

The past has gone the future is uncertain.

Just be you…

Love to you all 😊 😊 😊

Stacie 🐚 💋 💄 ❤️ ❤️

#seashellsandlipglossblog

#life

#blogger

#ukbloggers

#selfcare

#quitetime

ℍ𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕪 𝔹𝕚𝕣𝕥𝕙𝕕𝕒𝕪 🎂

Evening all ❤️

Seashells& lipgloss made it to it’s 1st birthday and I didn’t give up.

I promised myself that i would focus on something that could potentially be relatable to people.

I really enjoy blogging and im also finding myself again along the way.

When I first started blogging a year ago today, i didn’t know where it would take me.

I certainly didn’t expect the response I’ve gotten from me just completely being able to be myself however raw and painful it’s been, it’s been a blessing.

I actually thought to myself what’s one women from the West Midlands going to bring to her readers turns out that being completely yourself either brings you lover’s or haters.

My spelling isn’t fantastic sometimes its a typo error have to hold my hands up there and my grammar isn’t up to scratch.

But im me and this is what I love doing.

A year ago today i was a complete mess.

I had no direction i hated every one and everything, i held on to so much anger and hurt beacuse I simply couldn’t find the words to get it all out aloud.

Blogging has helped me in more ways than any psychological counselling has ever done.

Its a place i can openly be myself and for others to understand me more.

People choose to click my link and take the time to read my blogs and hopefully understand that everyone is going through something in life.

Its other people sharing experiences that don’t make us feel so alone in the world.

I want to say a massive thank you for all you’re views and likes and follows on all my social media accounts.

Here’s to more life drama than hollyoaks, hopefully no more heartbreak and plenty more laughter along the way.

Stay safe and stay home 🏡

Love to you all 😊

Stacie 🐚 💋 💄 ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

#seashellsandlipglossblog

𝕊𝕠 𝕓𝕒𝕓𝕪 𝕔𝕒𝕟’𝕥 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕤𝕖𝕖 𝕀’𝕧𝕖 𝕘𝕠𝕥 𝕥𝕠 𝕓𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕜 𝕗𝕣𝕖𝕖.

Evening all ❤️

Ahh what day is it…..

Loosing track of times, days & seasons.

Bit of lighthearted humour beacuse everything is so serious at the moment.

Everyone’s in mixed emotions and scared that’s understandable.

But on the otherside of things without sounding selfish… When is it all going to end thats the million dollar question isn’t it.

Im so sick and tired of feeling anxious about going food shopping its bad enough as it is without all this.

Your scared to even breathe too loud with fear of the state coming in and shaving you bald.

I understand its for our own good but i never want to experience this again and I know im not on my own.

Trying to live a normal daily life with added pressure changes to working patterns and new procedures every few days is a nightmare.

So Called my mum up yesterday absolutely fuming in a right strop like someone had pinched my last rolo.

But after a rubbish night’s sleep bad dreams and feeling slightly nostalgic.

i think if the cat would of looked at me in the wrong way it would of pushed me over the edge.

I know im not on my own but normally i don’t mind staying in but being told i cant go out only for work and essentials maybe odd walk with kids for exercise kind of restricts my aura.

I don’t like being told i can’t do something im quite rebellious in that way.

I like to make my own choices but understand these circumstances we have no choice.

Its just to much to think about and remember….

I don’t really have problem with shutting the world out but again i was making plans to see family, friends and travelling.

All on hold like a huge majority of other people’s plans.

I was talking to a couple of friends of mine about what’s the worst experience during this lockdown.

Mine has to be hands down the shopping experience queuing in the shops queuing just to get on a website online brings me rage only the incredible hulk would understand.

Everytime i have to do the dreaded food shopping i feel like im on a episode of supermarket sweep.

Its who can dart around the store in the quickest time whist Brenda from cedar crescent takes the absolute piss looking at two types of pork pies.

And dont you even dare pick up something that’s not classed as an essential item…. You might get sent to hell and yes you Bill put that chainsaw back its not a necessity.

Its just not normal i know i must sound so ungrateful i have my health and my girls and loved ones are ok.

But this blog isn’t about the illness side of the situation.

Im fully aware of the suffering and grief its causing.

But it’s about mental health issues surrounding it too.

As soon as its all over i can’t wait to give my family a big hug and give my freinds a massive hug ive missed them terribly.

As much as I love my girls god im going to throw a party when they announce schools are opening.

There’s been tears tantrums plenty of time outs..

My poor mum has listened to me vent more times than i can remember.

And friends also have to put up with my moods thank you ladies and gents i love you all.

On the lighter note do as boris says stay home stay safe even if your going a bit stir crazy 🤪.

Hopefully we won’t be in lockdown for much longer….

#FightCOVID19

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#ukbloggers

#selfcare

#quitetime

𝔸𝕝𝕚𝕧𝕖

Stacie Leanne 16/04/2020

Within the darkness beholds the night.
Therfore comes morning to show you the light.

Everyday it’s a blessing to be alive.
To wake up each day and know you have survived.

Be thankful for the love and the support you receive.

Be thankful for the sky and the air that you breathe.

Life is challenging and sometimes a struggle.
Sometimes it gets to much to juggle.

But you woke up this morning and you open your eyes.

How greatful you should feel to be alive.