In the darkness of the night

In the darkness of the night

I wish I could of held you close and tight.

Now I know that this cannot be.

The time has passed for you and me.

I reached out and you did not.

You always changed from cold to hot.

Minds go racing and time goes fast.

But we where never meant to last.

So you said and so you predicted.

All the hurt and pain that you inflicted.

Now you ignore me.

And now your free.

Now your living life.

But are you happy……

I’m no longer confused

Or my ego bruised.

I gave you my all, I had nothing to loose.

I was your plaything you was my muse.

So here I lay in the darkness of the night.

Wondering waiting thoughts running wild.

Wondering if anything can be reconciled.

After all this time and the pain you caused.

With the silence you granted me and communication on pause.

I still wish you well dispite both our flaws.

Letting go is hard to do.

When my mind is quite and I feel no fear.

I still get that feeling i’de like you near.

There’s a picture in my soul I still see so clear.

But sometimes in the darkness of the night I still wish I could hold you close and tight.

Poem by seashells.home.blog October 2019